love-thinking
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I have learnt through astrology that the hard aspects are things you need to learn through by coping with it and at times you need to overcome your natural instinct of acting out the aspect and try and engage in the higher manifestation of the aspect.
The internet seems to tell me that this moon pluto opposition aspect leads me to deeply desire relationships but also simultaneously fear it causing me to run, or freeze each time. This is one hundred percent true for me. And this escapist tendency is further exagerated through my venus in aquarius and moon trine uranus and neptune.
I have extremely well designed coping mechanisms and despite these coping mechanisms, the wounds never heal. But it seems like no matter how hard I try to make myself be vulnerable to someone else, they ALWAYS hurt me. They take me for all that I have and criticize me for all that I don't even if all that I have or gave is much superior than what they will get elsewhere. Often times they destroy our possible relation before it even gets a chance to blossom feeding me with sweet nothings and then blaming me for being the cold one. This aspect has literally led me to have social anxiety and distance myself from all that tries to get close to me, criticize (or even joke around in regards to me) me, or even do anything to surpass my boundaries.
I feel like a victim to this aspect. And believe me I have tried to over come my fears and insecurities, and actually foster relationships and even make myself vulnerable to some people. But it seems like the same pattern each-time and sometimes some of the things that people have done are plain unforgivable.
Any advice on to how to overcome these patterns?
The internet seems to tell me that this moon pluto opposition aspect leads me to deeply desire relationships but also simultaneously fear it causing me to run, or freeze each time. This is one hundred percent true for me. And this escapist tendency is further exagerated through my venus in aquarius and moon trine uranus and neptune.
I have extremely well designed coping mechanisms and despite these coping mechanisms, the wounds never heal. But it seems like no matter how hard I try to make myself be vulnerable to someone else, they ALWAYS hurt me. They take me for all that I have and criticize me for all that I don't even if all that I have or gave is much superior than what they will get elsewhere. Often times they destroy our possible relation before it even gets a chance to blossom feeding me with sweet nothings and then blaming me for being the cold one. This aspect has literally led me to have social anxiety and distance myself from all that tries to get close to me, criticize (or even joke around in regards to me) me, or even do anything to surpass my boundaries.
I feel like a victim to this aspect. And believe me I have tried to over come my fears and insecurities, and actually foster relationships and even make myself vulnerable to some people. But it seems like the same pattern each-time and sometimes some of the things that people have done are plain unforgivable.
Any advice on to how to overcome these patterns?