Mars Retro has had me re-treating from the world, and thinking seriously of re-tiring from my music career. Mars stopped right on my natal Mars at 19leo, and has cooly "moonwalked" back to my Asc at 1leo.
I've even retreated from this forum, as things got pretty heated over a thread I started back around November, and I gave up and left. So it's been a good time to re-think how I express myself(leo), and re-view how others may view me.(1st)
It's interesting, Michael Jordan has Mars in Leo, and he says his championship drive comes from the fact that he hates losing.(Leo's pride). But I just heard there are alot of stories of him being an a-hole. So I've been re-flecting on my own habits and how ppl see me, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that I really have to re-fine my leadership skills. Actually, up until this retrograde, I never really saw myself as a leader(I'm a gemini, dont wanna grow up). But with Leo as my ascendant, I'm re-alizing ppl see me as a leader, so I have to get my **** together and start acting like one.
Lately, I'm re-viewing, re-visiting, and re-living my past romances, which is what this rx period involves. I actually had a terrible terrible ugly end to my last relationship mid-January. My Mars just wouldnt let her past transgressions go. Right around the time it went stationary in Dec, I did something nice for her, and she turned around and stabbed me in the back. Long story short, I've been having to re-evaluate what I want in romance, and whether I should waste time dating someone who I wouldn't have kids with(5th-Leo loves to pro-create). This retrograde is a great time to take a step back and see where we all went wrong in matters of the heart. My ex made some stupid mistakes, but the epically asinine decisions she made right after Mars went retrograde took the cake. She was progressing along just fine for a couple of months before that, but she re-verted, and re-lapsed back to the same "bs" that made us break up in the first place.
So, use this retrograde/stationary period to stop,and re-view what you've done wrong in love affairs,child-rearing,creative-work,etc, and make sure not to re-peat the same mistakes. And for all those hot-headed Mars-ruled ppl who feel like things are going too slow, trust me, you'll be thankful for this little bit of time to take care of the all the little details you need to get right before you go rushing off into battle without the necessary armor.
ps I underlined all the words that start with re- to help everyone focus on the keys to unlocking the meaning behind this retrograde. To Raven, thanks for that article, one line stood out that I'm finally putting into action is to "Relinquish fruitless striving". That's a great motto for everyone now, as Leo's bit of narcissm seems to be taking over even the most avg ppl.
pps Oh yea, the ex, (whose Sun has progressed from compassionate Pisces to hotheaded, all-about me Aries), has rushed off in all her vanity to try and be a model. Perfect example of fruitless striving bc she's been drinking, partying, clubbing, and bar-hopping since last March. So needless to say, it's taken a toll on her looks, and it's a shame bc we broke up over her drinking(how sad is that?). If she ever gets off the self-centered ego trip she's been on, she'll realize she didnt hurt me with all her drinking, she hurt herself. And Im probably the only one who'll have the heart to tell her that her drinking has made her face look terrible, but she doesnt wanna listen so guess she'll have to learn the hard way (sigh.there goes my mars again. Word to the wise, don't ever break a Mars in Leo's heart, or try to seek revenge on him..Playing games with his heart is like going against Jordan, you will most certainly lose..)