Turkish Girl, thanks for your kind reply. In hindsight I thought I had stepped forward too far, and that I shouldn't have lectured you. If you feel this way, I apologize.
I am really sorry that you had such a rough time in ER. To keep your cool when everyone else around you is going crazy is really commendable. You don't have to look back fondly on those times, but please give yourself credit for the good work that you did. I think that a young woman in a traditionally male-oriented society would have an extra-tough time in these circumstances, so please take credit for being on the front lines of change for the better.
A personal anecdote, if I might.
I might mention that my father was a doctor with a specialty in internal medicine, which was a lot like having a family practice. He died many years ago, and medicine has changed a lot since then, but I recall him mentioning times when the medical team tried as hard as they could, but the patient died anyway. He did his internship in the poorest neighborhoods of a major city. Back when doctors did house calls, the telephone would ring in the middle of the night, and he would have to leave home to attend some emergency. Planned family outings would get cancelled because he was on-call. He did hospital rounds twice a day, and was not home a lot.
But I also remember all the cards and gifts that his patients sent to our house at Christmas time, some of them specifically because they thought he had saved their lives.
Because he thought it would be good training for me, I also had a summer job as a nurse's aid in the hospital. I was a college-bound middle-class girl, but was at the utter bottom of the hospital social ladder. I emptied bed pans and held the emesis basins for vomiting patients. Sometimes I got yelled at by patients and treated discourteously by the head nurse on my ward-- who never left the nursing station.
I also know about the strongly hierarchical nature of medical schools and hospitals, and that the top surgeons' egos trample over those whom they consider to be beneath them. I know residents have rotations that deny them a night's sleep so badly that they mistrust their ability to behave normally, let alone to make life and death decisions.
So I know that medicine is not an easy life, although it can be rewarding. I can see that this life isn't for everyone. There will be days when the patient dies, when the senior doctor scolds his underlings, when the patients are abusive, and you are ready to cry and quit medicine altogether. But there will also be those days when the nurses support you, you solve a difficult diagnosis, and when the patients thank you for healing them.
My impression of your horoscope is that medicine is a good career for you. As I mentioned several times, you can parlay a MD qualification into careers that do not involve patient care. Or possibly a specialty like dermatology or pathology where you don't have the pressure of critical care.
With your Leo moon, your pride has taken a terrible beating recently. (I have this placement, as well, and I really dislike being disrespected.) But know, also, that we Leo moons have the power to find the kernels of joy in life at its worst, and to share that optimism with other people. You have a bigger heart than those nasty people who didn't mind their manners. So you can afford to be calm in the face of all kinds of turmoil.
With all good wishes for your journey, W.
,you are one of the best astrologers i have met so far.Not just by reading my chart.How you sense my feelings through texting,i am just surprised.