This isn't a new situation...been like this all my life almost and I feel like my mom is a toxic person towards me but everyone seems to love her and if I honestly tell them she's toxic, I know for a fact that I will be called toxic for saying that as that will shock people who just adore her. My mom's critical of me about almost everything, she provokes me, if there's an issue on her side of the family (relatives of hers), no matter how wrong they would be towards me, she will take their side without a question and will not even attempt to scold them for the issues...her side of family disrespects me, I'm at fault somehow. This happened once 10 years ago and I can't seem to get over it by not forgetting. All her friend's daughters are amazing yet I don't know specifically how...one is ugly as donkey's a$$, the other is a compulsive liar but makes a lot of money and is married to a guy who looks like Quasimodo, the other one has it all but yet if she seems something nice on someone else...you feel the negative energy like jealousy from her although she's nice...if not jealousy but more like negativity for the fact that someone else also has nice things. It's as if there's nothing nice that my mom can tell me, and even if I do something good, she will find something negative in it to shut the feeling down as if I'm unworthy. she brings me down and although it's not a constant things, but it does happen and especially the last few days it's like every day. I never asked a horary question about my mom or this situation but I had to as I want to know why is she bringing me down, why do I feel this heavy negativity from her, why is she so toxic toward me...mind you that my dad is much much better and I don't really have much issue with him only time is if my mom is involved is when I will bump heads with my dad...because of her. Im not sure how to read a chart asking about mom..is she the 4th house or 10th? I am learning to put up barriers now and not let her push me around..i don't let her but perhaps once in a while I might not say anything to not further stir things up. Honestly, I'm so tired of her by now. Also, at times she can be oh so sweet lol it's like wow! She seems very manipulative.