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I've never really had friends or felt connected to people. I avoid large groups and communities. A solitary lifestyle seems to bring me the most peace
because whenever I'm around people, it's like they make me feel bad about myself, abuse my time and energy, or I have this need to cut them out of my life.
Hi AppLeo,
you use whole sign system - and couldn't yet find out on your own
. I use placidus house system and would like to share my insight and point of view. If not welcomed - pls feel free to ignore my post[FONT="]¯\_([/FONT][FONT="]ツ[/FONT][FONT="])_/¯[/FONT] .
Acc. to what you described before - I've the impression that it is more a question of do you really want friends ? Would you ever allow friends to enter your personal life and to come near to you ?
As your chart doesn't look like that you are easy to "catch" - or easy to reach or easy allowing people to come near to you - for a certain reason and past experience.
Although you obviously have an attracting energy for certain people - all placements in scorpio have- and kinda a subconscious understanding for people with deep issues - they deal with under their surface - you can notice like flash-light input within a second - even you weren't told about with any word.
A deep healing and self-healing potential with scorpio chiron - people can instinctively "smell"/notice and feel attracted from. Chiron zero degree exact sesquiquadrates your jupiter ruling your 11th house with sag pluto in - jupiter in intercepted pisces in 2nd house - house of skills and gifts - you were born with - under the surface - you don't show to others. Jupiter in 2nd inconjuncting mercury in 8th house - genetic inheritance and inherited skills and gifts from family members and ancestors.
Jupiter in intercepted pisces in 2nd house - defending own territory and own space- ruling 11th house with pluto in and 12th house - prenatal experience - claustrophobia symptoms in crowds ? Neptune co-ruling 2nd house in 1st - being a part of the t-square with opp. sun and saturn in taurus in 3rd at apex - umbilical cord around the neck at point of birth ?
Cancer mars trines scorpio chiron - semisquares leo mercury in 8th house and inconjuncts your strong aquarius uranus in 1st house -main ruling 2nd house - self-protection. A very quick reaction to defend yourself instinctively - without having to think about. Able to turn around to the contrary within a second - and to react different to what was expected - and also ablet to suddenly cut off - if you feel it necessary - and to suddenly shut your own doors completely - uranus ruling 2nd - setting boundaries.
Mars rules your 3rd house in aries - a firy energy - a sharp fast working mental mind -not much patient (aries is not known for) - a quick understanding - able to also use a sharp tongue in communication - if necessary. And quickly bored from useless small talk.
Contrary to traditional astrology - personal friends and encountering people personally - eye in eye - for me is/are 7th house. For me 11th house is the impersonal 4th quarter of the chart and more about social commitment - one can join people with the same interest, intention and sense. People you don't need to meet personally - as 11th house is also social media area.
Own birth axis ASC and DC - sign and ruler - show our first encountering experience here on earth at point of own birth. And whatever we experienced at point of birth as energy - can be stored in subconscious and can afterwards take impact energetically on every new beginning in own life - a new job, new friends, new partner, a new home - etc.
Moon ruling your 7th house - is in 8th house - with moon/pluto correspondence energy - is an intense strong energy in 8th house (death and near to death experience, shocks and trauma) mostly connected with the deep fear to get existentially destroyed, abundoned and let helpless alone - intensified and doubled by moon square pluto - showing difficult circumstances around or at point of birth and that your mother kinda had to fight for your life in a certain way - venus ruling 4th house in 6th house health inconjuncts pluto in 11th house - house of hospitals.
Moon in 8th house degree exact semisextiles sun in intercepted leo in 7th house opposing neptune in 1st - being a part of a t-square with saturn in 3rd house at apex - saturn as your chart and rising ruler.
And whenever you look for new friends - and your moon is transit activated to get you prepared for - all aspects of moon start running again and all subconsiously stored memory comes up again - able to take impact on you - beyond your personal control.
But you continously get a new transit-chance to try it again - whenever your moon is transit-activated by a slow moving transit planet - like jupiter, saturn, uranus, pluto, neptune.
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