Thank you Munch and Sugar!!
Sorry to be so vague. I will take your advice and ask more specific questions.
General Info about me- I am an extremely private person, and always have been. I am famous for creating one sided relationships because of my reluctance to self-disclose. It is hard for me to feel comfortable voicing my feelings or even writing them down (obviously its hard right now writing this, but I am getting better). I have managed to build 2 relationships with my two best girlfriends(one Capricorn, one Aries) where I actually do feel safe self disclosing. Also, I have started opening up to my mother. She has a moon in cancer as well, which is why I'm guessing she could always sense when I was in emotional turmoil, and would nag me about it. Hah so it actually turned out being way less stressful just being honest with my feelings since she is so persistent in wanting to know. I am very sensitive in every sense of the word. I am easily hurt, and am easily affected by others moods and feelings. Although by having a Sagittarius mother and a Leo older brother (they sure are blunt haha), I eventually learned to thicken my skin to some degree. In my younger age I felt more comfortable expressing anger. If I was mad at someone, Id tell them. If someone were mean to be, id fire right back. After turning 20, I felt a lot of my fire disappeared. I started bottling up and exploding rather than immediately reacting to my anger. On a lighter note, I am a hairstylist (my friend says I don't realize how talented I am), and also a full-time college student. I would say that I am pretty competitive. To me a B grade is the same as an F, they both aren't an A. I've been called silly a lot, I do love to laugh.
Relationships- Once I like someone it is hard for me to keep it to myself. I have to tell this person. I feel like if I wait it out and try to be patient, if nothing happens I would always ask "what if?" I feel this leads to many problems, especially since I am a woman. I've been told I "come on too strong." Its just when I like someone I feel it really intensely.
I seem to be naturally attracted to air signs. I think it has something to do with the fact that I grew up around nothing but Air and Fire singed people. my first serious boyfriend was a libra, and it lasted for a good three years.My favorite thing about him was that we could talk about anything, conversation was always stimulating and never boring.I ended it because of his neglect. I helped him get his GED, a driver's liscense, and through my brothers gave him a connection to record a demo tape (he was a guitarist in a band). And after receiving zero love or anything in return, eventually I became a 'cold fish'. At a young age I married a Pisces man, big mistake. Ive never seemed to get along with other Pisces. I wonder why I feel this way. He had a rough life, and I wanted to fix all of his problems and make him have hope again. I thought that if I did this, his tender heart could love me, boy was I wrong. I once read in a book that said when two pisces are involved in a relationship one emerges as the dominant "whale" piscean, and eventually becomes resentful of the little weaker fish. I was definitely the whale. Never have I been in such a one sided love! I am a very devoted lover, I tend to give my partner everything to help them reach their true potential. But when I get nothing in return, it may take longer than it needs to, but I emotionally shut down to that person and cut them off immediately and rather coldly. So now I am 25 and divorced. Had a short fling with an Aquarian. He was so strange, one day he liked me so much, and the next day it would be as If he never had feelings for me whatsoever. I once confronted him (after he stoped speaking to me for a month) and said "don't forget about me" and he replied "I've never forgotten about you, I think about you a lot." I always stop talking to him, and he always pops up again. Its as if he doesn't want me to forget about him, but he doesn't want me in that way. Its so strange, and frustrating. My last fling was with another Libra man, he pursued me (which I mentioned above usually I am the aggressor) and showered me with so much affection and attention, only to abruptly change his mind one day so unexpectedly (which I feel Librans are famous for things like this). We went out for about a week and a half. I feel like I have a curse on me or something sometimes when it comes to love. So in summary, I take responsibility for letting toxic people in my life, but I wonder why I naturally gravitate to these types of people. I know there are many factors aside from astrology that may access this, but I am not here for that. I am interested If my chart points to this bad behavior.
Other- All my life I have been sensitive to strange energies. I often feel that I am not alone at night, and that spirits are near by. The weird this is, I feel something is blocking me from completely communicating with these spirits. But I sure do continue to feel them. Also Ive noticed once I get close with someone, I become very in-tune with their mind to the point that I know what they are going to say before they even say it, and exactly what they are thinking.
Sorry for the blabber, I hope this helps. I am very appreciated of all the feedback, you guys are brilliant.