LaboutinSocial
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Hello forum colleagues! My first post here, and my first time on the forum. I've never posted on any forum in my life, but now it feels like it's time!
I have a long story that I'm going to try to be as brief as possible so it doesn't get boring, and so you guys understand a little bit of what's going on with someone desperate. Let's go.
I met a man on the internet in mid-2006, we talked about everything, we had an unusual rapport, which I've never had with anyone of the opposite sex and I haven't had since.
In early 2007, this man decided to meet me (detail: we are not of the same nationality, race, or continent). He crossed the ocean to meet me and we spent 3 weeks together, it was amazing. He was kind of my first love, and so far the only one.
Unfortunately, a lot happened, he went back to his country, and we never saw each other again, nor did we talk. From time to time, I wrote some email, and currently whatsapp. He always responds with great affection, we always talk in the same way even if virtual, and of course with the difference of almost 16 years, even so almost nothing has changed in our conversations, I have always been very in love with him.
Last year, I decided to look up his name on the internet, and to my ''pleasant'' surprise, I found out from his father's obituary that he has a wife and three children. I realized that he got over it, and that his life went on, unlike me.
Now, 2021, I'm home because of the pandemic, I have no contact with anyone and it seems that the love I have for him is growing, bordering on obsession. Every day I think about him, dream about him, and I'm very sad because I realized that I was the one who always suffered from this platonic love. And that only I love him, only I didn't get over it.
I'm now 34 years old, and I haven't had a relationship since 2007, I've always been waiting for him. Never since have I had someone with whom I was so in tune and who was of the opposite sex (I have a lot of relationship difficulties in general), and in the opposite side, he was always the extrovert, laughing, friendly, totally different from me.
I just know that I'm so jealous of his wife, I've always wanted to marry him and have kids since the first time I saw him.
Could it be possible to see thru this map of the two of us, I'm the only one going through this +15-year pain of love?! Or does he feel something?! Or am I just obsessed with him?!
I want a light, I'm really desperate. I don't think I'll ever find someone like him, it hurts every day, and today it's not as much better as the others. I don't know what else to do. My friends said in the past, that time heals everything, but in my case time only made the situation even worse.
Is there any aspect that makes me suffer so much and not him? Please help me, I think about so much nonsense to try to forget this obsession, I can't take it anymore, it hurts.
Thank you in advance.
I have a long story that I'm going to try to be as brief as possible so it doesn't get boring, and so you guys understand a little bit of what's going on with someone desperate. Let's go.
I met a man on the internet in mid-2006, we talked about everything, we had an unusual rapport, which I've never had with anyone of the opposite sex and I haven't had since.
In early 2007, this man decided to meet me (detail: we are not of the same nationality, race, or continent). He crossed the ocean to meet me and we spent 3 weeks together, it was amazing. He was kind of my first love, and so far the only one.
Unfortunately, a lot happened, he went back to his country, and we never saw each other again, nor did we talk. From time to time, I wrote some email, and currently whatsapp. He always responds with great affection, we always talk in the same way even if virtual, and of course with the difference of almost 16 years, even so almost nothing has changed in our conversations, I have always been very in love with him.
Last year, I decided to look up his name on the internet, and to my ''pleasant'' surprise, I found out from his father's obituary that he has a wife and three children. I realized that he got over it, and that his life went on, unlike me.
Now, 2021, I'm home because of the pandemic, I have no contact with anyone and it seems that the love I have for him is growing, bordering on obsession. Every day I think about him, dream about him, and I'm very sad because I realized that I was the one who always suffered from this platonic love. And that only I love him, only I didn't get over it.
I'm now 34 years old, and I haven't had a relationship since 2007, I've always been waiting for him. Never since have I had someone with whom I was so in tune and who was of the opposite sex (I have a lot of relationship difficulties in general), and in the opposite side, he was always the extrovert, laughing, friendly, totally different from me.
I just know that I'm so jealous of his wife, I've always wanted to marry him and have kids since the first time I saw him.
Could it be possible to see thru this map of the two of us, I'm the only one going through this +15-year pain of love?! Or does he feel something?! Or am I just obsessed with him?!
I want a light, I'm really desperate. I don't think I'll ever find someone like him, it hurts every day, and today it's not as much better as the others. I don't know what else to do. My friends said in the past, that time heals everything, but in my case time only made the situation even worse.
Is there any aspect that makes me suffer so much and not him? Please help me, I think about so much nonsense to try to forget this obsession, I can't take it anymore, it hurts.
Thank you in advance.