Daydreamer123
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Raped by my bf under drug influence
So i dated this older guy which is 25 years older than me, our relationship was only one and a half month since we knew each other till the end
There is a possibility that i fell head over heels towards him because he introduced me to my first love drug experience (he might or might not mentioned the drug intentionally in our conversation so i was interested to try it with him)
However the second time we went for the love drug, the place we went to ran out of it so we ate something else, i lose consciousness, woke up in his room without any clothes on (i agreed to slept over at his place but i didn’t plan to do “it”) And Him saying he did “it” to me and i bled but he didn’t consider it rape as he didn’t properly do “it” till he reach his peak
I wasn’t mad as i was madly in love (i also thought i was still a virgin because there was no “visible change on me”, that is why he also thought that i’m still a virgin too, thinking he didn’t take anything from me) instead, i planned to give it to him next time we had the chance. However we only met one last time and he left me, just before we had the chance to really do “it”
His reason was our age difference is way too much, we don’t have anything to talk about as we don’t really connect, and i live too far he feels like our relationship is long distance as we only see each other on the weekend (one and a half hour drive) while he wanted to find someone to wake up to every day. He also said he think about my future and doesn’t want to pressure me into doing “it” with him
I cried when we broke up via phone and i still call him whenever i drink. One day i was so emotional after i drink so i called countless times and left tons of voicemail, he was annoyed and blocked my number.
I just recently found out that i wasn’t a virgin anymore. I was devastated. I wanted to move on and leave everything behind so i told this to him by sending him an emotional text (my friends said the text was really heart touching) as a closure through my friend’s phone, he read it but he didn’t reply
By the way, he is a divorced guy with 2 children not living with him, he is divorced because he cheated on his wife (his defence is because he worked too hard, didn’t have time for his wife and family, so the relationship turned cold he found warmth in someone new). However his new girl cheated on him so he live alone now. He is also quite wealthy
My question are
1.) has he ever felt anything for me at all? (He said i love you twice and sometimes he felt like a really sweet person, he even stated that he wanted to go to my hometown to meet my parents)
2.) is it possible that he is by his nature a sociopath? Or is it just our really bad synastry?
3.) what aspects make a toxic and abusive relationship like this one? (i really need to know if this toxic relationship can really be seen from our synastry so i can avoid this later)
4.) are we really not meant for each other astrologycally?
5.) Do we still have the chance to be together in the future?
Thanks in advance!
So i dated this older guy which is 25 years older than me, our relationship was only one and a half month since we knew each other till the end
There is a possibility that i fell head over heels towards him because he introduced me to my first love drug experience (he might or might not mentioned the drug intentionally in our conversation so i was interested to try it with him)
However the second time we went for the love drug, the place we went to ran out of it so we ate something else, i lose consciousness, woke up in his room without any clothes on (i agreed to slept over at his place but i didn’t plan to do “it”) And Him saying he did “it” to me and i bled but he didn’t consider it rape as he didn’t properly do “it” till he reach his peak
I wasn’t mad as i was madly in love (i also thought i was still a virgin because there was no “visible change on me”, that is why he also thought that i’m still a virgin too, thinking he didn’t take anything from me) instead, i planned to give it to him next time we had the chance. However we only met one last time and he left me, just before we had the chance to really do “it”
His reason was our age difference is way too much, we don’t have anything to talk about as we don’t really connect, and i live too far he feels like our relationship is long distance as we only see each other on the weekend (one and a half hour drive) while he wanted to find someone to wake up to every day. He also said he think about my future and doesn’t want to pressure me into doing “it” with him
I cried when we broke up via phone and i still call him whenever i drink. One day i was so emotional after i drink so i called countless times and left tons of voicemail, he was annoyed and blocked my number.
I just recently found out that i wasn’t a virgin anymore. I was devastated. I wanted to move on and leave everything behind so i told this to him by sending him an emotional text (my friends said the text was really heart touching) as a closure through my friend’s phone, he read it but he didn’t reply
By the way, he is a divorced guy with 2 children not living with him, he is divorced because he cheated on his wife (his defence is because he worked too hard, didn’t have time for his wife and family, so the relationship turned cold he found warmth in someone new). However his new girl cheated on him so he live alone now. He is also quite wealthy
My question are
1.) has he ever felt anything for me at all? (He said i love you twice and sometimes he felt like a really sweet person, he even stated that he wanted to go to my hometown to meet my parents)
2.) is it possible that he is by his nature a sociopath? Or is it just our really bad synastry?
3.) what aspects make a toxic and abusive relationship like this one? (i really need to know if this toxic relationship can really be seen from our synastry so i can avoid this later)
4.) are we really not meant for each other astrologycally?
5.) Do we still have the chance to be together in the future?
Thanks in advance!
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