turkish girl
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I have never been a social one since til these years.Usually spent my time usually alone,either studying or doing things alone.
I have had very complex family environment that usually being insulted,unloved and all.Mainly people love their highschool years but i hate it.All i remember these years i had only one close friend and talking other people but not close.Not partying because my home was very far away and i had no money to spend.
When i entered MD,I was shocked that every student comes from wealthy family.I was one of few whose parents did not go to college.I could not tell anyone about my issues becase they were not mature enough like me to understand them.
At my family circle we have always been criticized by uncles,grandparents and other relatives.Because of they did not love my father they did not love and appreciate us.Even they got surprised how i became a doctor.
Now at my workplace it is same with college environment.I have no one around who faced hardships like mine.They all are spoiled children.And they are talking about some silly fashions or tv series which i have no idea.
They are surprised that i dont know luxury brands or i did not go to expensive places in my younger years.To sum up i have nothing common with them except being a doc.
The last red line was one of them kinda insulted my husband not being a doctor and getting low salary then us.So now i dont want my husband enter this kinda environment because i am got bored of all these.But its hard for me because we work at same building.
I am the one who is doing best job here.Everyone says i am the best one here and they wanna have shifts with me.They says its easy.
I dont mean I wanna be friend with them but why i just cant find a place i am comfortable in.
İt is like why i am not accepted?Why i have to feel i lack something?Why they are so lucky that faced nothing just enjoyed life while i cried every single day.
My husbands parents are very nice people.Maybe because they are not educated much i am like a professor at his home because i am a doctor.Maybe his mother made much more compliment about my beauty and persona in this 2 years than my Real mother.Is this a coincidence?
What can you suggest me?I want a nice friend who is mature enough like me.I dont like society dynamics in my current City and i dont want to work with those superficial, materialistic,gossipping people.
My work is easy here so i just dont want to change it because of silly people?
I kind of withdraw myself from people.Isolated myself not talk to much.
Am i destined to be a loner?
here is chart
I have had very complex family environment that usually being insulted,unloved and all.Mainly people love their highschool years but i hate it.All i remember these years i had only one close friend and talking other people but not close.Not partying because my home was very far away and i had no money to spend.
When i entered MD,I was shocked that every student comes from wealthy family.I was one of few whose parents did not go to college.I could not tell anyone about my issues becase they were not mature enough like me to understand them.
At my family circle we have always been criticized by uncles,grandparents and other relatives.Because of they did not love my father they did not love and appreciate us.Even they got surprised how i became a doctor.
Now at my workplace it is same with college environment.I have no one around who faced hardships like mine.They all are spoiled children.And they are talking about some silly fashions or tv series which i have no idea.
They are surprised that i dont know luxury brands or i did not go to expensive places in my younger years.To sum up i have nothing common with them except being a doc.
The last red line was one of them kinda insulted my husband not being a doctor and getting low salary then us.So now i dont want my husband enter this kinda environment because i am got bored of all these.But its hard for me because we work at same building.
I am the one who is doing best job here.Everyone says i am the best one here and they wanna have shifts with me.They says its easy.
I dont mean I wanna be friend with them but why i just cant find a place i am comfortable in.
İt is like why i am not accepted?Why i have to feel i lack something?Why they are so lucky that faced nothing just enjoyed life while i cried every single day.
My husbands parents are very nice people.Maybe because they are not educated much i am like a professor at his home because i am a doctor.Maybe his mother made much more compliment about my beauty and persona in this 2 years than my Real mother.Is this a coincidence?
What can you suggest me?I want a nice friend who is mature enough like me.I dont like society dynamics in my current City and i dont want to work with those superficial, materialistic,gossipping people.
My work is easy here so i just dont want to change it because of silly people?
I kind of withdraw myself from people.Isolated myself not talk to much.
Am i destined to be a loner?
here is chart
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