I<...> I'm always always thinking and piercing the veil. Just be, just do just experience, just feel, just intuit
I know many people in their 40s still feel like they're teens or in their 20s. And I know we're all constantly transforming and learning. As kids, we love to think adults know everything, but no one knows everything. We're perpetually lost, searching for our next plane of growth and transformation. We're never found. We never have all the answers. I told her that, the girl. Even if I seem like I know things, it doesn't mean I do and just the same with anyone else since she was intimidated by it. I do believe we become surer of ourselves as we get older, but we only because more sure of our ability to slay the next dragon that comes our way. We're never sure what kind of dragon it'll be or how exactly it will attack. It'll always bring some new means of strength and fighting out of usSee, you've already caught up!
Seriously, all it takes is one person thinking you're older and wiser. For that person, at least, you are, and that's all that really matters. You don't become older and wiser to yourself. You become older and wiser to other people.
I recall you know a lot about herbalism. Did you just acquire your knowledge from books and internet resources? I'm interested. I believe there's herbs for so much of what we suffer from, even cancer. I also love that perspective of not just taking as like many Native American tribes, I've come to realize everything has spirit and it should be honored and not just claimed and taken as if it was always just there for us and not for itselfThere's magic in any food that's directly acquired from the wild. The gathering and hunting lifestyle that humans lived by for more of their existence than not, depended on spiritual connections between people and the plants and animals they ate. Even agriculture required those spiritual connections in order to happen. Animals can't be domesticated without their consent (I saw that clearly ten years ago, when I "tamed" a feral cat--actually, the cat redomesticated herself for me. I saw her get more and more domestic with every interaction between us, until finally she decided to move in with me and stop being feral altogether). Plants all have their own essences--using them as food or medicine makes use of their spirit essence, not just their physical chemistry. To work with that essence, you don't just take it, you ask permission. You communicate with the plant.
There are a couple of great books that go into more depth on the magical and supernatural being simply the natural: David Abram's The Spell of the Sensuous (it's a surprisingly dense book, but refreshing... at the very least, read the ant story in the first chapter--it was a great perception shift when I read it), and, to some extent, Barbara Ehrenreich's Blood Rites. While Ehrenreich was writing primarily about the roots of war, she made a clear connection between religious ritual, blood sacrifices, and the primordial human experience of dealing with carnivores--both as the hunted and as the hunter.
I believe this too. That's why I take it as quite a compliment that I've been given so many challenges in life to forge me in this hellishness. I believe we're also never given what we can't handle"Life always gives us exactly the teacher we need at every moment. This includes every mosquito, every misfortune, every red light, every traffic jam, every obnoxious supervisor (or employee), every illness, every loss, every moment of joy or depression, every addiction, every piece of garbage, every breath. Every moment is the guru."
"Each moment, life as it is - the only teacher.
Being just this moment - compassion's way."
Joko Beck
I am wishing you the very best, L.
No. That kind of knowledge isn't found on the internet, and mostly not in books, either. I've taken classes, taught by herbalists. I'm now in the last two months of a three year program. We've graduated to seeing clients under supervision.I recall you know a lot about herbalism. Did you just acquire your knowledge from books and internet resources? I'm interested.
That's why cats have nine lives.My cat, as all cats can catch onto patterns, always waits at our garage door to be led into the garage where the main garage door is usually open to the outside world. Sometimes he'll simply choose to lounge on a cough in the garage, sometimes he'll choose to go out and roam. I realized it was a little bit like us as I believe in higher consciousness beings. When we recognize the door to walk through, they may open it, and we may choose to explore and see what there is to find, or just lounge there and fall asleep. Either way, we're reliant to some extent on them whether we can sense them or not. At least, it seems so. So it made me see animals a little differently. They're reliant on us to open the doors, to give them food and water unless our cat go out and find something for themselves for a night. And then I wonder if like us, other animals are striving for something more. And then I wonder if they're not already higher than us in consciousness. We wouldn't know
That's a shame. I'd be very interested in studying herbalism, but I don't see that happening in the next 10 years for me. But hey, 'you're not dead until you're dead' is part of my philosophy. I don't understand people who at some point just give up for feel like they can't go achieve certain things because of ageNo. That kind of knowledge isn't found on the internet, and mostly not in books, either. I've taken classes, taught by herbalists. I'm now in the last two months of a three year program. We've graduated to seeing clients under supervision.
It doesn't have to be an all or nothing proposition. I've taken the "all" option, but well before I took a class, I was participating in online discussions about herbalism (on the weedforums, part of Susun Weed's website--the forum crashed and most of the old posts were lost, but it's back up now), and reading about it, and trying out herbal teas. I cured myself of UTI, vaginal infections, bronchitis, and ovarian cysts, all with herbs, when conventional medicine either failed or wasn't available to me.That's a shame. I'd be very interested in studying herbalism, but I don't see that happening in the next 10 years for me. But hey, 'you're not dead until you're dead' is part of my philosophy. I don't understand people who at some point just give up for feel like they can't go achieve certain things because of age
This is why I'm a cat. I should've died a long time ago but I just keep coming back baby
I love the last quote. The pure hellishness of life is how I find heaven. I won't assume heaven to be what everyone said it is. I'll find it for myself by exposing myself to the fiery elements of hell"To experience true happiness one must experience true happiness."
-unknown
"The deeper you plunge into hell, the further you shoot up to heaven"
-unknown
I know nothing in life ever goes as we plan, but I want to get to France as soon as possible and get a masters so I can apply for citizenship. I'm learning French and everything. I want to finish my bachelor's first tho and I'm not sure if I'll want to get a master's here too in creative writing since a professor I've worked with for a few years is here. Before the age of 30, I want to go on an Ayahuasca retreat, possibly. But of course, things always change. Maybe at some point I'll be able to become an herbalist lmaoIt doesn't have to be an all or nothing proposition. I've taken the "all" option, but well before I took a class, I was participating in online discussions about herbalism (on the weedforums, part of Susun Weed's website--the forum crashed and most of the old posts were lost, but it's back up now), and reading about it, and trying out herbal teas. I cured myself of UTI, vaginal infections, bronchitis, and ovarian cysts, all with herbs, when conventional medicine either failed or wasn't available to me.
There are also part time classes available in some places--it depends on there being a teaching herbalist around--and the American Herbalists Guild offers resources and webinars. Basically, it is something you can spend years learning about on the side. You don't necessarily have to go the becoming a professional herbalist route.
And hey, I didn't even take an herbalism class til my late thirties, and I was 40 when I started my current program. Ten years from now, you'll be only 35. To put it in perspective.
I do believe cats to be my spirit animals, particularly big cats. I identify with them a lot. I channel a cat like nature in myself too. And I have 9 lives. 8 are already used, so let me be carefulYour spirit animal, perhaps?