Re: Venus Conju-pluto from "Aspects in Astrology" by s
Hi Mabel,
I am back to disect some more and dig deep into my psyche, find whats underneath there and shed light upon it.
Emotionally insatiable, yes strongly identify with this, especially when I was a bit younger, nobody could fill that deep dark hole inside of me. I was expecting relationships to fulfill me to fill in the emptiness, not sure if I felt empty but deeply depressed dark energy surrounding my Venus and how I should value myself. Was I lovable this was a big issue for me. Events from my childhood played a large part in the depressed energy I was feeling. I would question why did these experiances happen to me didn't I deserve to be loved and valued. I realize now I didn't need to question my loveability, I do deserve to be loved I am lovable, but you have to believe this deep down in your soul and not look for someone to fill this love for you.
I do have this sort of contradictary personality, with the poor self image of how loveable I feel, but if I am rejected I feel quite shocked I think "how could you resist me" ha ha I must think I'm irresistable with all my charm and sexuality. Hot Stuff
I haven't been afraid of such an intense relationship, I guess it is my intense emotions needing an outlet. A very negative outlet but the energy had to be released somewhere, this is why it is so important to find positive releases for these powerful energies.
Even though I don't relate in the unhealthy way I used too, Love still has to be very deep for me and if a man is prepared to die for me, I take that as the ultimate token of love.
Very true who can really handle all of this intensity on a day to day basis, you wouldn't be able to breathe.
I can be insanely jealous if I thought
my boyfriend thought another woman was attractive I would go mad. Lucky for him he's not like that.
But I would never show my Jealousy because I would think if he knew I was jealous I would lose my power in the relationship.
This is me all over as you can see now I am analyzing every part of my relationships "the why and the wherefore" If there is a problem I like to strip it down and see what the issues are and try to deal with it. I guess this can be exhausting for whoever I am with, but how else can you deal with it.
Ultimately I want to transform my relationships I want to relate in a healthy way. I hope I am growing towards this way of relating every day.
Thought I would end on the major lesson for us venus pluto girls "letting go".
Letting go of the need to get love not using power, sexuality, whatever means you think you need to use in order to keep love. Let things be, if a person loves you they will love you for the person you are inside, not for what you can give them not for your looks sexuality and money. As this excellent description for Venus Pluto explains give the other person enough space to see if they do really care, discover if they will hang around even if they don't have to.
Great description thanks for that I will copy a couple of pages out of my books to help describe the addictive relationships, I know you haven't been in a relationship yet but you may find it useful in understanding the venus pluto. The psychology behind why we are intense, why our love nature is quite dark.
It is quite heavy reading because it will touch a lot of nerves. A lot of issues can resurface. A big step towards transforming our love is to become conscious and aware of ourselves. This may be very difficult to face but at some time in our life we will have to in order to heal and find the happiness we deserve.
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