Abby83
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Yeah maybe the dream where I had grown up with the witch I eventually murdered and the one where I murdered all these soldiers starving the city was the same lifetime because there is an age-gap that could correspond to it. The dream where I was lying in a field injured and then shot sound like it could be connected to when I killed all those soldiers, no matter if I was justified. It does all make sense.
Those are good tips about surviving narcissism, especially the 'it's important to reflect so that you don't absorb the abuse,' statement, that's golden. I'll need to watch some youtube videos and practice it. I absorb everyone's abuse, even from the workplace so now I know what I've been doing wrong.
You do sound like you have finished the karma with the MIL because you no longer absorb it and can live with or without her. My plan was to stay away from my family and maybe confront them, I'm not sure what the future holds and whether I will reach a balance like you have. There is plenty of time but if it's not the end, the important thing is to do as much healing as possible.
Do you still get visions about the future or did it happen in a burst like my past-life ones did? An interesting thing to note about the witch thing is I have a strong Lilith conjunct an angle and get abuse from females because of it. So that's the witch karma right there.
Oh me too re lilith. My asc is scorpio and it squares lilith in 4th house, the house that rules family and the mother in law. asc ruler is also pluto, and pluto trines lilith. Yeah, nasty women for sure.
As for my mil, i still find that she keeps me on my tail with her ridiculousness. especially her need to oppose. it wud be so much easier if she just cooperated. narcs dont cooperate. for them its either to dominate or be dominated.
As for visions about the future i only had two of myself where i was asking god what my revenge will be re a couple of ppl. I had one vision where ill be dancing on a stage again and i will be seen by the man who treated me like ****. And i had a vision of myself with head phones speaking with a microphone, perhaps on youtube or something. In both visions i was slim and in good shape so im happy i wont stay fat like i am now. tbh, i really cant understand why im so fat these days. im doing no different to what i was doing when i was skinny. Oh and i had one other vision which im not sure if i mentioned, but it was a vision of the man responsible for vaccines, showing me that he's sick in the head and that it's all a scam to make money from the pharmaceutical industry. especially when it comes to autisctic and adhd kids who take meds for their problems.