jupiter said:
Dear littlewoodyallen,
4 years or even a month of our life is never "nothingness"
Even though we seem to be going at a snail's pace as long as we breathe we gather experiences, knowledge, even mistakes
We learn from the people we meet
Don't be anxious about doing the same mistakes, You WON'T
Yes I see the stellium in Aquarious.
Also mars was on your rising degree for many months
By the first chart you put on and the majority of cardinals in the angles
as well as by pluto transiting your Asc-Desc axis and not only, I believe that a change is about to happen.
Neptune upon your stellium can be tricky
think ask and then act
Ah Your natal mars ruler of Your natal tenth seems more in the 6th house to me
Good luck
There is a title of a book I like a lot " I fell down 6 times I got up 7 " or sth ilke that...
Do not lose your courage
look straight ahead and keep going
Any Saturn transits lately?
It seems like sth kept you back.
no, you are right..
i have learnt a great deal about life after graduating from highschool (2004)... 3 years or so of that 4 years, i spent my entire life as a recluse.. i did meet a few individuals who shaped my life & how i view it, too as well as studying spirituality on my own time in my bedroom.. i no longer fear death, but embrace it. so okay, maybe those years weren't nothing in terms of growth -- i guess i meant it was nothing because i didn't do the 'normal', work full-time or go to college, graduate, find a job upon graduation like many of my peers.
but i can say that i didn't need to be in school to learn this 'wisdom' - i suppose, i can honestly say that many people i encounter, young, or old.. do not see things the way i do & for that, i feel grateful for those years in solitude & 'captivity'..
these days i no longer want to be the sad recluse, but rather a productive one
-- i've spent a lot of time THINKING (my bad habit), i ask myself questions sometimes but receiving answers i feel disappointed in because i'm starting to think that i must start ACTING this time.
mars has been helpful for me to crawl out of my shell in the last some odd months, indeed. well actaully, since last summer.. july/august of 2007.
the pluto hitting my asc/dsc.. yeah, that is a major thing - i do feel like big changes are happening or will be.. i feel a great change internally, spiritually, emotionally speaking.. but i heard that i should take care of my health as well?
the mars in my natal chart looks like its hugging the 6th house cusp, but it is in the 5th... perhaps maybe it could be read as being in both?
there must be some kind of heavy saturn transit.. it is in my third house.. maybe it could explain the mental heaviness?
do you know who wrote that book? i can't seem to google that title.
thanks.