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moonkat235

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passiflora said:
The funniest part is how others can associate smoking with a level of chill psychological imperturbability. When they're really a coping mechanism for burning anxiety. It helped me to be told that the lungs are the seat of grief in Chinese medicine.
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Yeah it's a destructive coping mechanism. For me, it had a lot to do with anxiety and boredom and avoidance of responsibilities, hence the two packs a day frequency. Not gonna lie, I thought it made me look a certain way and I liked that perception. It didn't fit with the rest of my presentation, which looks straight edge, innocent, maybe even naive. I liked having incongruent facets to how people see me.
 
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moonkat235

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It was also just really terrible for my asthma and my stomach was messed up pretty bad when I was smoking. I wish it didn't have such an aesthetic appeal to me, but it did.
 
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david starling

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moonkat235 said:
It was also just really terrible for my asthma and my stomach was messed up pretty bad when I was smoking. I wish it didn't have such an aesthetic appeal to me, but it did.
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You have to listen to what your body is telling you!
I had to stop eating red meat for that reason alone, although I had ethical issues with it as well.
 
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moonkat235

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passiflora said:
I agree that when you're young it is a shortcut direct way of saying to people "accord me some depth and space beyond your limited perception and imagination, please." Since we are mirror-oriented creatures that seems to matter to us quite a bit.
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Mirror-oriented creatures. I like that.

It made me think of that Sevdaliza video for her song 'Human' that I linked a while ago. The description is a quote, 'the basic human need to be watched was once satisfied by god' and then I was thinking of mirroring and how the Bible says we were created in God's image, etc.

Apparently the quote comes from Deus Ex, a 2000 video game, or something. I haven't heard of it before. Never been into video games.
 
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Hkk

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SunConjunctUranus said:
The problem is I combine the usage of coffee and cigarettes for a day, 5-7 cup of coffee and a pack turbo of cigarrette. And I agree with Hkk's suggestion with smoke pretend, I'll try it with lollipop candy for sure.
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lmao not real smoke pretend SCU lmao!!!! I mean that stuff....you know....omg had to look it up....VAPE?
 
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Hkk

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SunConjunctUranus said:
Live in the 1st heaven of hermetic's logic and around the epicentre of 1st heaven of archipelago. Your life style dictate my naration that you're a nun, can you confirm this assumption?
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i think your asking me if i live like a nun. i don't understand the first part, I'm sorry. Can you rephrase this part? Might as well become a nun the way it's going lol.

To me, sometimes, this place, the words used are like complex. I don't understand half the stuff you all say. Some are worse than others maybe to fit in...not sure.
 
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moonkat235

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passiflora said:
Me neither on video games.

Yea that video it was something else. We were just talking about the superego / conscience factor the other day too which is what that quote made me think of.

Mirroring came up in my esoteric practical philosophy class this morning. I won't go into the details but the teacher shared a kind of related story about using mirror therapy for people who had been amputated but had phantom pain too intense to go about living or accept prosthetics. Which I thought was super cool and have been thinking about all morning.
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Oh I've heard of mirror therapy for amputees! We talked about it in my 'how the brain works' class a few years ago. So fascinating.

Speaking of that class, one thing I always remember is how a singular neuron in a petri dish forms little connections to itself. It gets lonely I guess. Poor lil neuron. When I heard that, my friend's dad was in solitary confinement in prison and all I could think was, I wonder how that's going and if he's talking to himself, etc. Kind of a weird thought, but it's stuck with me for years and I never forgot about poor lil singular neurons being all lonely in their petri dishes.
 
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