Alitta the Archer
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I have my Moon in Libra and my Sun, Venus, Mercury and Mars in Sagittarius .You can see that the most important aspects of my chart are ruled by Air and Fire, those elements are known mostly for emotional detachment and cool-headedness .
Let's just say that I'm ruled by my head rather than my heart , however my Cancer Sun, Pisces Moon mother describes my ability to keep cool and collected in the worst possible situation as cold-heartedness which's not true since I sympathize with others, I just don't show it the way my mother does.
I never had problems with the way I am until my grandfather, whom I used to be very close to, died recently. During his funeral I didn't shed a single tear. I was so sad and I felt devastated yet I couldn't cry. my friendly fun-loving uncle died as well, a year ago and the same happened.
I don't know why but it makes me feel horrible about myself as if I did never cared about them. My father asked me once if I truly loved my grandpa because he thought I wasn't the least bit sad.
Every time something bad happens like losing a loved one, I turn as rigid as ice as if my whole heart freezes and my emotions simply shut down.
It's really weird because the exact opposite happens when I'm feeling positive emotions such as happiness, hope, excitement . My heart overflows with them, I become very expressive and easy to read; like a child with his favorite toy.
What should I do about it ? It really hurts when people keep accusing you of being unemotional and unfeeling.
Let's just say that I'm ruled by my head rather than my heart , however my Cancer Sun, Pisces Moon mother describes my ability to keep cool and collected in the worst possible situation as cold-heartedness which's not true since I sympathize with others, I just don't show it the way my mother does.
I never had problems with the way I am until my grandfather, whom I used to be very close to, died recently. During his funeral I didn't shed a single tear. I was so sad and I felt devastated yet I couldn't cry. my friendly fun-loving uncle died as well, a year ago and the same happened.
I don't know why but it makes me feel horrible about myself as if I did never cared about them. My father asked me once if I truly loved my grandpa because he thought I wasn't the least bit sad.
Every time something bad happens like losing a loved one, I turn as rigid as ice as if my whole heart freezes and my emotions simply shut down.
It's really weird because the exact opposite happens when I'm feeling positive emotions such as happiness, hope, excitement . My heart overflows with them, I become very expressive and easy to read; like a child with his favorite toy.
What should I do about it ? It really hurts when people keep accusing you of being unemotional and unfeeling.