To begin with, I apologize for the length of this post. I've written it very quickly tonight and don't have time to write a shorter piece!
Your Sun in Aquarius describes you as innovative and unusual. Your Pisces Moon reinforces these qualities because it is receptive, ready to blend what is real with what is unreal, the practical with the impractical, religion with the occult, mysticism with science and the poetic everywhere. Your personality is driven by introspection.
Outwardly, however, your Scorpio Ascendant, with its ruler, Pluto, in very tight conjunction (only 52'), depicts you as extremely intense, incapable of superficiality of any kind and profoundly emotional. Your emotions are either openly expressed or tightly controlled. Other people likely experience you as an all-or-nothing kind of guy in your approach to and engagement with others. While Scorpio has an unfathomable capacity for intuition and empathy, its desire is to control by knowing the utmost depths and heights. Pluto’s conjunction increases this emphasis.
Others find you either magnetically attractive or reject you from the outset. Your innovative, creative approach to issues, and other people, is enticing, as is the strongly mystical bent in your self-expression. But many people find these qualities to be worrisome and some may be afraid of you for no apparent reason.
There is no disguising Pluto’s will to power or his obsession with secrets. It’s not that you can’t keep a secret. You can and you do, far better than most. What may disturb some people is that you intuitively know secrets that they have laboured very hard to conceal not only from others, but from themselves most of all. The temptation to use secrets for your own purposes may be very strong for you at times.
I suspect that you may have found others’ reactions to you to be confusing, particularly when you were a child. You may have invented ways to appear to be relaxed, easy-going, negotiating, open to compromise, even unconcerned about control or leadership. But, try as you will, these strategies generally fail to produce the outcomes you’ve sought. This is because you can’t see, and often can’t even feel, how powerfully Pluto works in and through you. Pluto operates in secret, in hiding, and the first person from whom Pluto is hidden is always you.
Scorpio rising is sexual and erotic, but needs help to be genuinely loving. Fortunately, you have Venus in the 4th house trine Pluto and ruling your 11th house of friendships and the love you receive from others. Venus, here, softens some of the harsher characteristics of Pluto conjunct the Ascendant. You can, and do, love other people, though you may be disappointed or frustrated if they feel overwhelmed by you or anxious about your attention. Those who accept you and your care, however, will find that you are a deeply loyal, devoted friend and companion whom they can trust to the very end. Everyone wants to be truly known by someone and to be loved, anyway. Few of us ever find such acceptance, but you are able to give it and to love passionately.
You will likely be unable to work successfully with the challenges that are part of such a strong, Scorpio/Pluto Ascendant, however, unless you address your anger issues. The Sun square Pluto heightens your need for secrecy and your determination to control others, your environment and yourself. Square aspects are about obstruction, diversion, obstacles, impediments, imbalances and frustrations, none of which are ever acceptable to Pluto. It will be very difficult for you to find effective ways to address your propensity for controlling others, particularly in close, personal relationships, but this is something you must learn to do without manipulating others or expressing rage when you feel frustrated. You may have a hard time with people who have authority over you, particularly men.
With respect, and with no intention of accusing you or anyone else with a Sun square Pluto aspect, I must say that this aspect is too often found in the horoscopes of people who are violently abusive. The difficulty with this aspect is that, when you express it in the way that seems right at the time, it feels good. It’s natural to you. It feels like the right thing to do at the time, even if you regret your actions later.
I raise this because you also have Mars quindecile your Ascendant as well as Mars quindecile Pluto. The quindecile is a 165° aspect that indicates what the astrologer Noel Tyl calls “unrelenting motivation, obsession, determination, upheaval, disruption, even separation.” He considers the quindecile to be as important as conjunctions, squares and oppositions in a chart. For you, Mars is domiciled in the 7th house of partner relationships, which includes both intimate partners and business partners. Mars rules Aries, in which your 5th house of creativity, love given and children is found.
Any harsh aspect between Mars and Pluto must be taken seriously because of the potential for destructive expressions of anger that such an aspect may encourage. Your Mars quindecile Ascendant can indicate aggression and anger both in your self-presentation (Ascendant), in your partner relationships (Mars in the 7th house) and in your love relationships and relationships with your own children if or when you have them.
The most important thing to recognize is that the Ascendant is not you. The Sun describes your vital energy, your core values and objectives, your ego, the force within you that enables you to make decisions. The Moon describes your reigning need in life which the Sun fuels and to which all other planets contribute in various ways. The Ascendant is the way you present yourself and engage with the world. It is a mirror or amplification of the Sun-Moon combination, illustrating how you will be in the world as you express your Sun’s energy in service of your Moon’s needs.
I think i get your point now. My chart has been attached
