I am currently studying medicine, but my guts tells me its not my path (i love the science part, but dealing with people and practical thing scares me). I am new to astrology(would like to learn about it in depth, so book recommendation for beginners would be nice) and i just want most important facts about my personality and which universities and general life paths are in synchronicity with it. Also i have problem with putting myself in society, always absent-minded, not belonging to any social group but jumping from one to another hoping i will find my place (but easy to assimilate with most of them, maybe because i am open-minded, free-spirited), idealistic, no friends, never had relationship, I have vast interest in everything, science, music, philosophy, psychology, spirituality, physics... but i end up not mastering anything, basically i enjoy learning new stuff (not practical, but abstract)to a certain degree , then i lose interest. I experience world in BIG picture (connecting dots from different knowledge ), and when i come to master ANYTHING, finishing details destroy my motivation. I am extremely quiet and shy guy, depressed and anxious, my social and emotional intelligence really suffers, since i did not develop it.
Sorry for long and messed text, and HUGE thanks if anyone helps me in any way.