Violet_Flyer
Member
Hi to you all. I had originally posted this in "General" but was advised to move it over here. I had THOUGHT my Saturn Return was causing me a lot of grief, but a senior member or two pointed out that my SR hasn't even started yet (holy ****!) and that this looked more like a Pluto issue and to seek counsel from the medical astrology experts over yonder.
So, I throw myself on your mercy!!!
Since November 2009 I have been experiencing a terrible kind of "mystery illness" that no one can seem to diagnose (I've been to so many specialists). It started out as terrible fatigue, sleeping 18+ hours a day and grew into roving arthritis all over, extreme digestive issues, brain fog and confusion, hair loss, skin rashes, depression, anxiety, etc!
I ended up having to leave my job (which was actually OK because I decided I no longer want to pursue that career path of 10+ years and it was time for a change) and so am now at home, unemployed and working on some writing projects as I can. Though mostly, I still sleep a lot and sort of "putter around" the house.
I see an energy healer, and she has said that I'm operating on about 25% right now, and to just stop everything and focus entirely on getting better, self affirmation and self-care. So that is pretty much what I'm up to.
I just want to know...will this ever end? I am improved, my joint pain is better (localized to knees and elbows now instead of everywhere), I have started to do a bit of yoga and can go out sometimes with my partner for dinner without falling asleep at the table, and my hair has started to grow back. But I've still got a ways to go, and the mental confusion about 'what now?' is still pretty intense. I can't do much socializing and mostly just stay at home. I find loud noises or crowds deeply disturbing.
Before this happened I was such a get-up-and-go person. Traveled all around the world, was always socializing, swam 20 laps in the pool every morning before breakfast... now i feel like an old woman at just shy of 29! And am terrified that when Saturn Return starts it may near kill me!
Thanks for any wisdom you might be willing to share. At the very least, all this illness has awakened a real passion for Astrology and I'm trying to learn as much as I can and read as much as I can about it. It's pretty awesome stuff!
-Violet
So, I throw myself on your mercy!!!
Since November 2009 I have been experiencing a terrible kind of "mystery illness" that no one can seem to diagnose (I've been to so many specialists). It started out as terrible fatigue, sleeping 18+ hours a day and grew into roving arthritis all over, extreme digestive issues, brain fog and confusion, hair loss, skin rashes, depression, anxiety, etc!
I ended up having to leave my job (which was actually OK because I decided I no longer want to pursue that career path of 10+ years and it was time for a change) and so am now at home, unemployed and working on some writing projects as I can. Though mostly, I still sleep a lot and sort of "putter around" the house.
I see an energy healer, and she has said that I'm operating on about 25% right now, and to just stop everything and focus entirely on getting better, self affirmation and self-care. So that is pretty much what I'm up to.
I just want to know...will this ever end? I am improved, my joint pain is better (localized to knees and elbows now instead of everywhere), I have started to do a bit of yoga and can go out sometimes with my partner for dinner without falling asleep at the table, and my hair has started to grow back. But I've still got a ways to go, and the mental confusion about 'what now?' is still pretty intense. I can't do much socializing and mostly just stay at home. I find loud noises or crowds deeply disturbing.
Before this happened I was such a get-up-and-go person. Traveled all around the world, was always socializing, swam 20 laps in the pool every morning before breakfast... now i feel like an old woman at just shy of 29! And am terrified that when Saturn Return starts it may near kill me!
Thanks for any wisdom you might be willing to share. At the very least, all this illness has awakened a real passion for Astrology and I'm trying to learn as much as I can and read as much as I can about it. It's pretty awesome stuff!
-Violet