Sparkling Frank
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m 20 years old and I feel completely lost in Life, Please Read my Chart
EDIT AS OF 5-3-19: It is now confirmed that I am a Pisces rising. Someone personally checked my chart, comparing it to dates I gave them that shows great significance in my life. I am not an Aries rising.
Okay, I understand people will automatically assume the advice here is "Oh youre still young, trust me you have enough time"
Ok well that's not me. I need to get going on what I need to do :-( Today has just been a very mellow, emotional day. I have positive transits on my moon right now but I feel very down?? I have no desire to socialize or communicate with anyone.
I dropped out of UC Merced back in at the beginning of last year and went back to my community college. Ever since then, I feel like I've been on a long term mission on growth and evolution on my soul. I'm in a totally different space, I've been embracing it ever since. I started attending UC Merced in the fall of 2017, so I was only enrolled for a semester. I've always regarded my departure as strange. I didn't really want to leave but I FELT like I needed to. My relationship with my family was terrible. I felt like I needed to go back home to fix things. My mom kinda pushed my away from home, but when I was away, she always guilt tripped me for not trying to communicate as much with her.
I feel like my parents don't care about me, I feel like I can't trust my family. The atmosphere here at home has definitely gotten better though! Thank god. I'm always trying my best to keep things straight but I simply can't. Thing's always fall apart. I know that my parents think that I'm a failure, I know they think I'm incapable of a lot. And it hurts my heart but overtime, I've learned to become somewhat detached and I feel like that's now the major issue. But there isn't any other OPTION for me, I feel. It's either that or I will go insane and potentially want to kill myself. I feel like I'm stuck in a box. I wanted to leave off to college to help myself grow and be on my own in an environment that I would want to live in this year, but I got rejected from all six schools I applied to.
I feel even worse now. I feel absolutely terrible.
I'm currently just overwhelmed, I have no one I can 100% trust. I feel like I'm always the one in a friendship or relationship who gets betrayed. And by the way, when I say the words "I Feel like", it's really me just saying that it's happened multiple times before.
I feel so burdened by the type of people I meet, the situations I'm placed in. This is literally the one time in a long time that I'm spilling out my emotions because I never do. I have no clue what to do. I feel like my family is the one thing holding me back in this life.
Can somebody look through my chart and tell me anything that will make sense? Sorry for the long description, I needed to let a lot out.
Should I get a tarot card reading?? Is my family really a problem or is it me? And honestly, I'm fine with reading any bit of information.
EDIT AS OF 5-3-19: It is now confirmed that I am a Pisces rising. Someone personally checked my chart, comparing it to dates I gave them that shows great significance in my life. I am not an Aries rising.
Okay, I understand people will automatically assume the advice here is "Oh youre still young, trust me you have enough time"
Ok well that's not me. I need to get going on what I need to do :-( Today has just been a very mellow, emotional day. I have positive transits on my moon right now but I feel very down?? I have no desire to socialize or communicate with anyone.
I dropped out of UC Merced back in at the beginning of last year and went back to my community college. Ever since then, I feel like I've been on a long term mission on growth and evolution on my soul. I'm in a totally different space, I've been embracing it ever since. I started attending UC Merced in the fall of 2017, so I was only enrolled for a semester. I've always regarded my departure as strange. I didn't really want to leave but I FELT like I needed to. My relationship with my family was terrible. I felt like I needed to go back home to fix things. My mom kinda pushed my away from home, but when I was away, she always guilt tripped me for not trying to communicate as much with her.
I feel like my parents don't care about me, I feel like I can't trust my family. The atmosphere here at home has definitely gotten better though! Thank god. I'm always trying my best to keep things straight but I simply can't. Thing's always fall apart. I know that my parents think that I'm a failure, I know they think I'm incapable of a lot. And it hurts my heart but overtime, I've learned to become somewhat detached and I feel like that's now the major issue. But there isn't any other OPTION for me, I feel. It's either that or I will go insane and potentially want to kill myself. I feel like I'm stuck in a box. I wanted to leave off to college to help myself grow and be on my own in an environment that I would want to live in this year, but I got rejected from all six schools I applied to.
I feel even worse now. I feel absolutely terrible.
I'm currently just overwhelmed, I have no one I can 100% trust. I feel like I'm always the one in a friendship or relationship who gets betrayed. And by the way, when I say the words "I Feel like", it's really me just saying that it's happened multiple times before.
I feel so burdened by the type of people I meet, the situations I'm placed in. This is literally the one time in a long time that I'm spilling out my emotions because I never do. I have no clue what to do. I feel like my family is the one thing holding me back in this life.
Can somebody look through my chart and tell me anything that will make sense? Sorry for the long description, I needed to let a lot out.
Should I get a tarot card reading?? Is my family really a problem or is it me? And honestly, I'm fine with reading any bit of information.
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