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Re: Question about my chart?

Your chart has many unique patterns and strong points, but obviously the good angles wouldn't exist without some bad ones... mathematics, to which we love giving interpretations.

You hate living on the Jupiter MC line because you are not supposed to live on it in the first place. Notice that the opposition is inside a Kite formation (check whether the orbs/planets are applying or separating). This does not dictate your life, but defines the struggle upon which the other energies are built on and start functioning. In other words, you can fix the emotional struggle you feel and get the necessary energy (dignified Mars) for self expression (dignified Sun) by taking matters in your hands and solving what the positions of 3 other planets suggest and are connected to your moon. These would be Saturn/Uranus, and Venus.

Now because the planet of opportunities sides with the point of opportunities (jupiter mc conjunction) but oppose Moon, you cannot stand there and wait for something to happen but instead take the responsibility in your hands and ignore fear or feelings of self-depreciation "i can't do this, i am bad, I shouldn't do this, this is too risky" because this seems to be something that sets you back. Diminished self-confidence. By thinking the opposition is the focus in your life, you are doing exactly what the aspect says: and then you get stuck there. You need to go for something that breaks the mould instead of a traditional path, maybe. Your chart seems really nice for acting to be honest, did you ever go to trainings, workshops or courses? Do you have any special skill that would let you land something in a related field (tv commercials) ?

I believe you need something that reassures your self-worth. Quick answer would be "if I got an answer from a job I'd be happy." But to get to that simple thing you need to do some internal work first, because even if you got one you'd further be unhappy.

Your communicating abilities seems like something that will help you on your path. Mercury is also the planet of your ASC. Maybe something related to the sign language? Or maybe writing, or for this age we're living in, typing. You can put Mercury to good use. Mercury and Sun both in the 11th, and it semi-sextiles Venus in the 10th, which means that something having to do with the betterment of a social structure, working for a charity maybe, somewhere where you can communicate your ideas and create relationships with people, can help you. Have you tried something to do with acting or whatever, with/for the community? (old, young, kids, any age?)
Only you can tell us if these ever crossed your mind. If you want to start on a new career path, think about how you can bridge your current experience/s and situation to the desired new one, and avoid desiring too much at first.

I see Saturn in the 4th House which in itself is a generally pretty difficult position and affects your home and familial views/relationship with your parents. It is very possible that your family was the one who pushed you towards a career that does not match your ideal of self-expression (either physical, verbal, or maybe artistic!), but also remember that parents only want the best for us, and generational differences shape our thinking. Without them it wouldn't be better, but worse, there would be no structure. So all in all, you are better than you might think, because they also gave your life more structure, practicality, which I have to say, are very important elements early in life. You might feel like they even held you back or judged you. This in turn affected your relationships. It starts with Saturn, as the bigger planet will come with "karma" or elements out of your control, that you will have to tame and manage using your personal planet, which here is Venus - by doing something that warms up your soul. So you have to break free from the feelings of "Can't do this and that, nothing works" by going on a different career path, the one you want. This decision alone might be enough to spark the other planets in your chart.

Why? Because this was also the time of your Saturn return in the chart. It asks you... What have you been doing? Where do you want to go? Your Chiron is also there, in the 10th. And you are free to reconsider.

Go for what Saturn in the 4th signifies for you, solve it/the issues there involved, this will alleviate your moods and lift your spirits a bit, and this will give you a clearer sense of what your self-worth is based upon and how you can be empowered, job-wise. Use your ability to communicate for to solve it (Merc). Oftentimes we isolate ourselves thinking other will not understand us, but I think you can convey your feelings with energy and accuracy, without coming across as impertinent or antisocial.

Remember, these are only possibilities and suggestions. You have a Scorpio Moon so contrary to what half-assed piece of paper you might have read, hanging onto anti-depressants is the exact opposite of what this perceptive moon needs. I suggest you go for something that affects your mind and body less, such as plant-based alternatives and smell therapy such as lavender, and drinking a tea or two. I can see the medication taking the energy away from you, not making you any lighter in the long run. Do you know about the drugs and medicine/pills market? Be careful of Walmart licensed doctors out there prescribing anti-depressants like morning coffee, especially as you seem to be looking for them. If you want to believe something, believe 'Saturn' can hit you hard. Have you tried... any interesting games? Something immersive.

Last edited by Andrea_; 08-28-2018 at 02:11 AM.
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