I set up so many projects for myself mentally- some are boring/work oriented, others are endeavors I genuinely want (artistic, creative things), and others are things I know I can enjoy when I get into it- but I have trouble starting the process and don’t give myself enough time! This has been happening since my youth~
Hello Bloop,
your chart doesn't show your gender - whether you are male or female- what would be important to know - concerning your first male principle model role of acting out and especially for what you would enjoy - 5th house - mercury ruled with chiron - the inner wound - placed in.
You already are some days around here on earth - and it is surely not effective on all in your life. You have a work, clothes you wear and have chosen, you daily choose what to you like eat and have a roof over your head.
Everything in a chart starts with moon, sun and mercury- the most important first planets.
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From youth on" means born with it (2nd and 3rd house). Your moon as the perceiving female principle rules your 3rd house mental mind, thoughts, your personal manner of communication. perceiving information and processing information.
Cancer - water element - in 3rd house is a flowing emotional energy open to feelings and able to be visionary and to imagine a lot before inner eyes. But to get it acted out what passive principle moon has perceived and thought about in your 3rd house- an active male principle is needed and necessary to get it happen.
Your moon - your thoughts and perceptions are in zero degree exact quinkunx with your sun -male active principle- in 7th house - an aspect to be very creative and working close together - and to get it visible to other people (7th house), too.
BUT.... your moon is zero degree exact sesquiquadrated by your saturn in aquarius in 10th house - and sesquiquadrated by pluto in 6th house - both getting between your moon/sun aspect - you quickly feel yourself inhibited and restricted from on your own - because of having high standards of perfection - and because of start thinking and to see it through the other people's eyes as not perfect enough and to have to work on a lot before - what can immediately stop your creative flow and to start to get in action for - thinking - I never will achieve it in this perfect way.
Moon is in a mercury ruled and directed 2nd house (house of skills you are born with but also house of self-protection and safety- first) and mercury as ruler of 2nd house and 5th house- creativity- is in scorpio in 6th house - to first work hard on perfect perfection before presenting it to others.
And you yourself are your own graceless judge with saturn in aquarius high above in 10th house squaring the master of perfection - pluto in 6th house.
Start thinking of perfection - is the end and the death of any creative natural flow.
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