First of all, I would like to say that I really love this discussion here and am thankul for everything that you have shared. It has been very helpful and meaningful for understanding the planets in my own chart and in the charts of my loved ones.
My mars is in capricorn (retrograted) and in trine with venus in virgo.
I consider myself highly assertive, ambitious, and successful when it comes to achieving goals. I find a way, strategies, methods and steps, how to get where I want to...and I get there eventually, with lots of focus and hard work. I am energetic, active and get extremely frustrated when I have to discus with people how to do certain things, I'd just rather stop talking, and start doing it
I used to think that people are just lazy, but eventually I have realized that I am paying a high price for all that energy and drive.
I also have mars opposition sun (in cancer) and square moon (in libra), which, on the one hand, makes me a go getter, but makes my life really hard most of the time, too. This is probably what makes me competitive (but not openly, more like secretly), temperamental, very stubborn sometimes, dominant and probably also egoistic. But above all, impatient. I also hate it when someone tells me what to do, but am rather bossy myself.
I don't like agressive people, but if I am honest, I do get quite agressive sometimes. Outside the circle of my closest ones I do not get confrontational often, but in my private life, I do have outbursts of anger, I could say even agression sometimes. Publicly, what makes me enter a "fight", is when I see someone being bullied, when someone underpriviliged is being treated unfairly. That's when I somehow get fire under my feet in order to step in (I do have problems, when it comes to stepping in for myself though). Or if people are telling one thing and doing another (I just hate bulls**t). So in public life I tend to avoid confrontations and use my intellect and diplomatic skills and use the right choice of words for the people I am dealing with ("winning" the battle in the end
) But in private I am more passive agressive. I think the retrograted mercury in leo, trine with jupiter and ASC, both in sagittarius play a vital role in "winning the verbal battles". And probably also in achieving goals as well.
My mars is in 2nd house (I guess, since ASC is in sagittarius). I have studied planets a lot, but still struggle with houses. I am also not sure what the retrograted mars in capricorn brings (I have read that it takes away willpower).
In the last couple of years I have realized that I am repeating the patterns of my father and act the way I used to hate soooooo much when I was younger. I have been trying to learn how to channel all that energy into sports, meditation, gardening, old furniture, learning to play the guitar, singing, etc. But it is a life long process, I guess. What helped me the most, is the NVC model of communication (to get in touch with my true emotions, seeing why they are there, which need is not being met, and empathically express that).
I am highy creative and rather succesfull in it, the only "thing" I fail to create is a child
But I guess a child isn't just another goal or project, so obviously I have got many lessons to learn. So this is where I fail. And it hurts. Maybe mars has something to do with this as well...
You are welcome to share anyhing. I have been drawn to astrology since I can remember but I keep it for myself most of the time, so I am eager to hear anything about how I interpreted my own chart, even if there is something I got wrong or if there are any other areas I should focus on.
P.S.: I am really excited, because this is the first time I am interpreting my chart out loud
Lots of love,
Estella