I really dont find a reason to live as a cancer man, i am feminine in a way no one notices it but i feel it very very deeply, I don;t feel like a real man, i don't think like ordinary men, and sure i dont act like men, I am a womanly man, disguised in a very very hard exterior. I am not physically handsome, i ahave the cancer man ugliness (the small features if you remember tom hanks annoying ugly face). I think with my emotions (according to the mood), I am not stupid, I am very smart, i have a genius iq. but only 20% of my day i tend to think logically and the other 80% i think as women do, according to their mood. I understand other peoples emotions and thoughts very well to the extent that i tell someone what they wanna say before even thinking about it . I am extremely perceptive. I even lost any hope long time ago of dating any women with my looks or my personality, the only hope i am considering right now i that i can lose my virginity through my money (if i made any) to some *hore, or i can marry a gold digger (again if i made any money).
I know i am speaking in a negative tone, but I swear and I am very honest right now, I gave all of that **** a lot of logical thinking and extensive analyzing. trying to find a motivating reason to complete a life that i dont find it very interesting.
this is my natal chart if you wanna see it and want to give me any comment about it, maybe you can find a new light for me i couldnt find, maybe you are smarter than me and i missed something that you didnt miss.
i.imgur.com/77UUqlC.png
I know i am speaking in a negative tone, but I swear and I am very honest right now, I gave all of that **** a lot of logical thinking and extensive analyzing. trying to find a motivating reason to complete a life that i dont find it very interesting.
this is my natal chart if you wanna see it and want to give me any comment about it, maybe you can find a new light for me i couldnt find, maybe you are smarter than me and i missed something that you didnt miss.
i.imgur.com/77UUqlC.png