Slytherin88
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Hi, I'll try to be as precise as possible. With Mercury being currently retrograde in my 3rd house, many details slip through my fingers these days.
-I've been these last 12 months in a self-created chaos, and I think that unconsciously I'm sabotaging myself. It's gotten to the point where I seriously might be kicked out of my university. I don't know why I do things that I do. I need attention and love, and as extremely silly as it sounds, I feel so lonely that I keep internalizing my feelings and sabotaging my life. I thought that Uranus conjunct my Sun will help me get out of my shell, and make me braver, but it just made feel freer and more authentic. Uranus opposite my Moon is hitting me closer to my heart. I can't control my impulses and unconscious tendencies. I'm 25 years old, and I never worked my entire life. It's embarrassing, because I'm quite scared to face people. If it was a job that wouldn't require me leaving my house everyday. (Once a week is fine!)I know that this might be because of SN being in the 12 house in Cancer, and me being a Cancer Ascendant, but it's so hard to control my self this year. Is it only Uranus opposite my Moon to be blamed? I can't explain it better than this. Me, the 25 year old, who's never kissed, worked, or even been asked for a date. I'm fundamentally embarrassing. I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to find excuses, on why I failed so bad in life so far.There are so many fears I have failed to face. I wish I was braver.I hope that I'll fix smth very important in my life when Jupiter is conjunct my Moon, and when it's opposite my Sun, in September/October. I don't feel like I trust anyone in my life. My friendships and family has been so utterly disappointing, and made me feel even worse. I've been through so much, having been for so many years severally depressed, and now I just want to be happy. But, I can't ignore my responsibilities just because they make me unhappy. I must be braver and stronger. Thank you if you read this far from the bottom of my heart.
I'll post the natal chart and the transit's one separately , just so you won't get confused.
-I've been these last 12 months in a self-created chaos, and I think that unconsciously I'm sabotaging myself. It's gotten to the point where I seriously might be kicked out of my university. I don't know why I do things that I do. I need attention and love, and as extremely silly as it sounds, I feel so lonely that I keep internalizing my feelings and sabotaging my life. I thought that Uranus conjunct my Sun will help me get out of my shell, and make me braver, but it just made feel freer and more authentic. Uranus opposite my Moon is hitting me closer to my heart. I can't control my impulses and unconscious tendencies. I'm 25 years old, and I never worked my entire life. It's embarrassing, because I'm quite scared to face people. If it was a job that wouldn't require me leaving my house everyday. (Once a week is fine!)I know that this might be because of SN being in the 12 house in Cancer, and me being a Cancer Ascendant, but it's so hard to control my self this year. Is it only Uranus opposite my Moon to be blamed? I can't explain it better than this. Me, the 25 year old, who's never kissed, worked, or even been asked for a date. I'm fundamentally embarrassing. I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to find excuses, on why I failed so bad in life so far.There are so many fears I have failed to face. I wish I was braver.I hope that I'll fix smth very important in my life when Jupiter is conjunct my Moon, and when it's opposite my Sun, in September/October. I don't feel like I trust anyone in my life. My friendships and family has been so utterly disappointing, and made me feel even worse. I've been through so much, having been for so many years severally depressed, and now I just want to be happy. But, I can't ignore my responsibilities just because they make me unhappy. I must be braver and stronger. Thank you if you read this far from the bottom of my heart.
I'll post the natal chart and the transit's one separately , just so you won't get confused.