TamaraL
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I 've noticed a needy-pattern in certain areas of my life. (love relationships= MENTORS a weird complex ) Initially I wanted to name this thread "dependency -love issues in the chart". But the theme-question here is intellectual stimulation & forming relationships (love relationships). It took 25 years for me to notice this...
Breakthrough!!!
Its not easy to detect it in my everyday life because I appear to be very independent in serious relationship decisions & a bit of loner (A LOT) & very specific about what I am searching in life and love.(One would describe me a woman who doesn't need anybody to tell her what to do..)
Subconsciously I am searching for a mentor type of lover & friend, someone "who will teach me things"...a guru maybe??someone that possesses the same level of intellect & interests & will help my spiritual evolution (the next level). Even in my private journals there is this overall theme of finding a mentor & evolve through his teachings...Have someone to exchange heavy intellectual ping-pong... !!
I realize that makes me more un-relatable to the average boy-man of my age group (even more when I was younger) & makes me shut down the flirty side of myself quite often. I feel comfortable flirting with older men, significantly older (& really brainy that flirt is not just conventional flirt but a waterfall of ideas)...Again it took me so long to see this!To really detect whats going on backstage in my brain...
If I begin to sense that the other person is not my "equal" as a thinker I become indifferent (sexually) to them. When younger I 've felt a but guilty over this...now not really!I 've never heard a similar opinion by a woman or a man!! (Only when I watch Sherlock, on BBC one!Scary comparison..) Have you seen this trait before in a woman? Would you consider this a dysfunction inherited from the behavioral patterns of my early environment?
In my natal Chart I feel this must be combination of Pisces Sun in the 9th Conjunct Venus & Aquarius-Mercury in the 8th. But then again theres no aspect between my Mercury & Venus! Or is this a Mars square Mercury to blame for wicked attitude towards attraction & love relationships? I have this tiny (HUGE) fear that this attitude can prevent me from experiencing a real- fulfilling relationship. Does my chart & progressions show if I can gain real fulfillment & not just intellectual (power play) fulfillment?
Tam
Breakthrough!!!
Its not easy to detect it in my everyday life because I appear to be very independent in serious relationship decisions & a bit of loner (A LOT) & very specific about what I am searching in life and love.(One would describe me a woman who doesn't need anybody to tell her what to do..)
Subconsciously I am searching for a mentor type of lover & friend, someone "who will teach me things"...a guru maybe??someone that possesses the same level of intellect & interests & will help my spiritual evolution (the next level). Even in my private journals there is this overall theme of finding a mentor & evolve through his teachings...Have someone to exchange heavy intellectual ping-pong... !!
I realize that makes me more un-relatable to the average boy-man of my age group (even more when I was younger) & makes me shut down the flirty side of myself quite often. I feel comfortable flirting with older men, significantly older (& really brainy that flirt is not just conventional flirt but a waterfall of ideas)...Again it took me so long to see this!To really detect whats going on backstage in my brain...
If I begin to sense that the other person is not my "equal" as a thinker I become indifferent (sexually) to them. When younger I 've felt a but guilty over this...now not really!I 've never heard a similar opinion by a woman or a man!! (Only when I watch Sherlock, on BBC one!Scary comparison..) Have you seen this trait before in a woman? Would you consider this a dysfunction inherited from the behavioral patterns of my early environment?
In my natal Chart I feel this must be combination of Pisces Sun in the 9th Conjunct Venus & Aquarius-Mercury in the 8th. But then again theres no aspect between my Mercury & Venus! Or is this a Mars square Mercury to blame for wicked attitude towards attraction & love relationships? I have this tiny (HUGE) fear that this attitude can prevent me from experiencing a real- fulfilling relationship. Does my chart & progressions show if I can gain real fulfillment & not just intellectual (power play) fulfillment?
Tam
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