StillConfused
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I've just had a rough couple of hours - I recently started studying for a Vedic Astrology diploma which I'm very excited about AND I got very excited about this new method of rectifiying birthtimes I found here on the forum (JUPITERASC's post) and I tried it out on myself, my ex (who's sweet and known about what I'm into for a while).
THEN I tried it out on facebook on two people I hadn't told prior that I was into astrology ... and it was off putting :-( . And other's view of mysticism, especially when it feels like a personal judgment, still gets this reaction out of me. Truth be told I just want to love everybody and not care what they believe, but the latter isn't happening. Guess I've still got some astrology shame to heal.
It goes deeper though, it's a much older personal shame of my wants and needs being too other-worldly, too strange, too philosophical, too unattainable, too cray, I should be feared. It's the shame of being naive. That my opinions don't matter. Down to Earth and practical is safe but once they verge on/ stray to what cannot be proven or seen...THEY'RE USELESS!!
I wanted to share how I feel in this moment with this lovely community because this is one of the places I can come to and know that I am among other mistically-minded people . Or at least other open-minded people and where they are grumpy are sometimes smacked back into place ;-D
If you read this, and you're in the dark about being on this forum, about being so lost and alone and ashamed of the fact that you're turning to seemingly unfamiliar territory to replenish yourself, know that you are not alone. We are simply building anew.
Love to you all <3
THEN I tried it out on facebook on two people I hadn't told prior that I was into astrology ... and it was off putting :-( . And other's view of mysticism, especially when it feels like a personal judgment, still gets this reaction out of me. Truth be told I just want to love everybody and not care what they believe, but the latter isn't happening. Guess I've still got some astrology shame to heal.
It goes deeper though, it's a much older personal shame of my wants and needs being too other-worldly, too strange, too philosophical, too unattainable, too cray, I should be feared. It's the shame of being naive. That my opinions don't matter. Down to Earth and practical is safe but once they verge on/ stray to what cannot be proven or seen...THEY'RE USELESS!!
I wanted to share how I feel in this moment with this lovely community because this is one of the places I can come to and know that I am among other mistically-minded people . Or at least other open-minded people and where they are grumpy are sometimes smacked back into place ;-D
If you read this, and you're in the dark about being on this forum, about being so lost and alone and ashamed of the fact that you're turning to seemingly unfamiliar territory to replenish yourself, know that you are not alone. We are simply building anew.
Love to you all <3