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Unread 05-04-2017, 08:43 AM
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Re: Why did this happen help guys:

Thank you V, for that very detailed explanation, a lot of it points to everything that is happening presently around me for instance , you mentioned that am considering making a change to my identity, behavior in relationships or facing an identity crisis . you have a point there. like i said in my previous post,my last relationships threw me for a loop, in a very bad way. the last one was the worst most abusive relationship i ever found myself. So after it ended very badly i vowed i was never going to be the same in relationships from then on, i even went as far as making a list of things to do to avoid falling into that pattern ever again in a different situation. on the top of the list was to really get into the person's head long enough to know all their demons first before committing any emotions because with my last relationship we married 9 months after dating i didnt know her all that well, the 2nd on the list is to never take anything at face value, to never trust and never let anyone in at all, never be nice, friendly , or open to anyone not even family never give too much away, or show too much of myself, reveal anything of myself that they do not deserve to know, which mostly likely is nothing i also made a 1 month rule of never showing interest in any one i dont know until after months or years of truly knowing them down to their soul AND never let anyone feel like they know me , or everything about me, that is weakness and my last relationship was abusive because of this. after that relationship i swore i would not leave myself exposed to another woman, because women are evil and i can never let them know my weaknesses, never let them see my true self. i have to protect myself, i built the walll of jerico around my heart, my mind and myself after that woman ruined me. so whenever people ask me questions i lie , i never once told a lie in my life but i am different now. i would even lie about what colour the sky is even if it was obviously blue because now i know truth is weakness i can not be weak. not for any woman. But i later met my current girl about 2 years after this list, and i did everything i said in my list to avoid being wounded again and she surprised me. i am never leaving her she is just like me. she is the exact same as myself before my wall was built. she is the epitome of truth. i can not imagine a life without her. and i regret the fact that she was unlucky enough to have not met the real me, the old me. but i am trying everyday to put down my walls only for her. it can stay up for everyone else but not her i know her now, she has earned my trust, love , loyalty and by god's grace i will one day marry her.


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Originally Posted by Vyri View Post
Addendum:
It is Mars making the square to Neptune which is the melancholy-sadness worry or concern about your ability for resourcefulness connected to the ability to demonstrate your talents, that you find an obstacle. Should you consider going to school to improve these? Mars in Gemini near the 9th of university, makes for consideration to these thoughtful (Gemini) considerations, (Mars is within the hidden 12th to the 9th) hidden, mulling over? It is Mars or actively seeking these considerations, should you have them, that will win the day for you and uplift your spirits eventually with the ability to plan for them. (Aries/Mars as host to the personal 1st energies)

Mercury is retro (rethinking) Saturn is retro (reconsideration of Sag. learning or discovering alternatives to solve situations for solvency) Energies appearing in thought provoking signs, houses.

Take care,

All the best
Vyri

Mhm when i attain my degree in whtever i choose to study again at university after i am done with my job i will go back and study , complete it because i took a sabaticle so i am very cautious of the fact it is unfinished and it is a constant worry , but i know that once i've made time and i go back to finish it i will not worry as much any more

ALL your points hit home. Thank you v.

I have now responded to your PM

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