Hi---
It was just this week that I recalled times when I was sexually abused as a teen by strangers and a co-worker...I wonder if I was also abused as a child and don't recall it. I have many traits of survivors. I feel sad and tense over this and am seeking help for this. I feel relieved in a way to have this awareness.....I wonder if anyone here can help with---
----What in my natal chart might indicate this? I wonder if Moon oppose Mars (emotional issues re: sex), Neptune oppose Mars (poor boundaries, difficulty saying no to people grabbing me as a teen, non-assertiveness), and Mercury square Neptune (more trouble with non-assertiveness, guilt, taking on responsibility for what an abuser did to me, feeling fearful speaking up about it) might be sources. And I see Chiron in my 7th (psychological wounds from interactions with others). I would imagine Pluto plays a role in sex abuse? It is rising in my chart.
-----WHat in my natal chart or current transits can help me as I heal? In my natal, I see Moon conjunct Neptune opposes Mars----maybe this can be a good thing, and I can use my emotions and inner healing powers to heal re: mars sexuality? Mars is in the 9th and I am feeling relieved (yet uncomfortably aware and sad) reading about sex abuse survivors---traits and healing.
----Re: current transits and healing-----I see transiting Sun and Neptune oppose my natal Pluto (stimulating psychological healing and transformation), Saturn is oppose my natal Sun and Venus (learning lessons re: self and love), Jupiter is exactly sextile my Mars (freeing me in the area of sexuality), Chiron is exac trining my Sun and Moon (emotional and self healing by Chiron), and Mercury is conjunct my 7th (intellectual awareness in the area of relations)
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Thank you
Melisa
It was just this week that I recalled times when I was sexually abused as a teen by strangers and a co-worker...I wonder if I was also abused as a child and don't recall it. I have many traits of survivors. I feel sad and tense over this and am seeking help for this. I feel relieved in a way to have this awareness.....I wonder if anyone here can help with---
----What in my natal chart might indicate this? I wonder if Moon oppose Mars (emotional issues re: sex), Neptune oppose Mars (poor boundaries, difficulty saying no to people grabbing me as a teen, non-assertiveness), and Mercury square Neptune (more trouble with non-assertiveness, guilt, taking on responsibility for what an abuser did to me, feeling fearful speaking up about it) might be sources. And I see Chiron in my 7th (psychological wounds from interactions with others). I would imagine Pluto plays a role in sex abuse? It is rising in my chart.
-----WHat in my natal chart or current transits can help me as I heal? In my natal, I see Moon conjunct Neptune opposes Mars----maybe this can be a good thing, and I can use my emotions and inner healing powers to heal re: mars sexuality? Mars is in the 9th and I am feeling relieved (yet uncomfortably aware and sad) reading about sex abuse survivors---traits and healing.
----Re: current transits and healing-----I see transiting Sun and Neptune oppose my natal Pluto (stimulating psychological healing and transformation), Saturn is oppose my natal Sun and Venus (learning lessons re: self and love), Jupiter is exactly sextile my Mars (freeing me in the area of sexuality), Chiron is exac trining my Sun and Moon (emotional and self healing by Chiron), and Mercury is conjunct my 7th (intellectual awareness in the area of relations)
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Thank you
Melisa