The fire energy is apt to be intensified by Uranus in the first house: [
impulsiveness, recklessness, exciteable]; this is square to your natal Moon [
changeable reactive patterns and mood swings] and that is a strong aspect of tension and challenge. The water energy is offset by Saturn oppose Mars [
a need for physical/material security.] There can be a tendency to
act on impulse, or take risks, only to find later that your actions can fail you: this can relate to a
lack of 'good timing' before setting your goals into action. Saturn and the Sun are also afflicted, showing a need for
adjustment or compensation of some type on your part. This aspect can cause a great deal of frustration for you. Pluto also has similar configurations with Mercury and Venus [
misunderstandings in communications or social scenarios]...Pluto in the 11th house can suggest that friends or peers may at times not have your best interests at heart:
some could try to manipulate or control you, emotionally. Neptune also afflicting your Mercury/Venus can also suggest deception or betrayal. No wonder it is hard for you to find peace and balance, with all the conflicting energies that lie within.
The Sun in the chart is found along with Mercury and Venus in the 4th house: this is the sector relating to early childhood experiences and conditioning which in turn, affect your personal psyche, even as you mature. It also represents the parents:
has there been difficulty with the father figure? There are apt to be control issues with one of the parents at least, but probably the father especially. You were born under the dark phase of the moon, which can be interpreted as having
a lot of internalized [secret or hidden] issues that have accumulated in the psyche; unfortunately much of our psychic stuff is stored below the level of consciousness, so we fail to see the connection between our actions and our emotional reactivity. There can also be
relationship difficulties because of the differing energies between your Mars and Venus: Fire and Earth. The practical and organizational nature of Mars, can serve to
dampen the enthusiasm [inspiration] of Venus.
Currently Saturn is moving to an important turning point in the chart [The Saturn return] during the next
two years; this can often bring losses, disappointments or feelings of restriction; this will be a time of clearing out the dross in your life, that is no longer of worth in your life. It is often a time of reflecting on the past, and the necessity of turning inwards to understand the inner wounding that is in need of healing. While the transit can be daunting, the long term affects symbolize
the ending of one cycle and the beginning of a new cycle of personal development. You may find yourself needing more retreat from the disappointments of the world: the key is to find new interests that are more conducive to relaxation and working towards greater inner balance; a good time for a sabbatical. You may be interested in my other writings about such topics found @
http://mystikvale.netfirms.com/2201.html, especially my essays on
healing the psyche, and
the search for the grail. I am now working on an additional article about the Return to the Goddess. I would be happy to provide more personal assessments from your birth chart, if you so desire. Blessed be.