Maybe but I don't feel the energy very strongly. I strongly resonated with descriptions of Moon in Aquarius as a teenager and young adult (and I'm still a young adult, I'm 22), but looking back I realize how I was using detachment and a wall of intellectual superiority to mask all of the hurt and insecurities within. It was a way to numb myself from all the hurt I had experienced growing up and all the hurt, all the frustrations I've experienced in life, but as I grow older my need for rapport, for security, and for a home grows stronger than ever. I realize how foolish I was to be so arrogant, to be so dismissive and detached, thinking I knew it all and I knew better. Aquarius moon tried to cover up and deny, yet at the same time, came up with its own kind of idealism, all of which was working to suppress the deepest needs of me as a Cancer. I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to be so at odds anymore. I don't want to keep up my facade of coolness and arrogance anymore. I tried using my moon to numb myself, to make myself stoic towards my emotional needs (had I been born a few days earlier with a Capricorn moon I may well have done the same) and the world, but now I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to be real and find peace and security in this world, rather than being that aloof wanderer.
I want to be happy, to feel safe, to be shown the beauty of the world and of life and no longer numb myself by putting up a mental wall where I keep telling myself I'll be okay as a loner and a wanderer. Part of me will always feel at odds with the world, it's not like the modern world has it easy on water signs (if the world ever has been), but now I want to try and be more at peace. I was once told by a woman I need to be gentler, to be more accepting, to not shelter myself so much.
I once thought I could be a revolutionary, I once thought I cared for the world and its people and that I could do something for people. I wanted to change the world, but it was only within my fantasy. Moon in Aquarius is supposed to have a humanitarian spirit but being honest with myself I have none. I care about my life and the people around me, I just want routine and a settled life with some comforts. That's what I honestly want, at one point I feared being conventional, being the same as everyone else. I tried to deny it, but now I realize how I just want to be normal and like everyone else, yet still be special in the eyes of the few people who love and care for me. I could never bear to be humanitarian, to care for many yet not care nearly as much about the few in my life. I'm not a revolutionary after all, I just want a home. Now I'm deeply suspicious of people with grand dreams, people with very complex and seemingly intangible / unrealistic ideas. Maybe it's another form of suppression I'm using, but now I know I need security more than anything else.
I once thought I could travel, I could live in many places and experience many different ways of life and many cultures. It's only after traveling that I've realized how much I crave home, I crave familiarity, and I crave being nurtured and mothered. I crave nurturing and taking care of someone. I tried to deny that, I thought my intellect would carry me through. Had you asked me when I was 16-20, I would have told you how proud I was of my "smarts" and being "different" (but in a subtle way), but it all sounds ridiculous to me now. I once scoffed at people who lived mundane lives, who took pleasure in the little, daily things and were also frustrated over them. I thought they were so petty, without any grander vision. Now, I've become like them and I can't go back to the way I once was. I feel ashamed for how ignorant I was.
I no longer want to be recognized for my intellect, as it was the impression I gave people for most if not all of the last couple of years. I want, more than anything else, to be recognized for my feelings and my character. I've made mistakes that I still can't let go of. I want to marry (I've always wanted to, but I used to have a far less down-to-earth vision of marriage), to have a home, to be a dad. And I hope I won't have to wait for much longer.