Gemini888
Well-known member
No, I'm not suicidal in any way. It's more of a strange fascination, like the feeling of curiosity you have when you just discover something new and you want to explore more of it.
I suppose this is Pluto conj Jupiter in 8H's doing, but that's not enough. My other placements are too light for that kind of interest.
It may have something to do with my traumatic experience with rejection as a teenager, but I notice that the interest is something that has its roof way further back. I wasn't scared of violent movies and games that terrified kids my age. I wanted more of them instead.
Recently the interest has expanded to suicide. I did a crazy amount of research into it. I have no plan to carry out anything bad. It's just that I can't help my curiosity.
Am I turning into a monster?
I suppose this is Pluto conj Jupiter in 8H's doing, but that's not enough. My other placements are too light for that kind of interest.
It may have something to do with my traumatic experience with rejection as a teenager, but I notice that the interest is something that has its roof way further back. I wasn't scared of violent movies and games that terrified kids my age. I wanted more of them instead.
Recently the interest has expanded to suicide. I did a crazy amount of research into it. I have no plan to carry out anything bad. It's just that I can't help my curiosity.
Am I turning into a monster?