We know each other since a year. The woman I wanna meet suffers from somatic symptom disorder and depression/neurosis. I don't wanna be pushy but that online relation starts burning me out. 1st time there was some misunderstanding (most likely). Took a break for a week. This time I'm planning on going cold turkey for another 2 weeks. She always says she misses me, worries about me, got attached to me making her days and our relation became intimate. But now looks like she won't reach out to me first again.
Sadly whenever I ask to visit her she always finds some reasons/excuses like she's sick or has other problems. And last time we were talking she said the problem is with her, not myself and she needs to wait 'til whatever depression is over. I became bitter and felt sorrow. Is it over? Am I chasing my own tail? I always preferred the brutal truth but she's not the kind of person who's gonna say "no". She's like "I want and I don't". It's kinda extending this "agony" like I was supposed to ruin her life. We talk quite a lot about everything including sex but that's just online... When she's like flirty or horny I e.g. ask when should I come and she replies "now". So I don't know if this is some kind of game or not. She's overprotective on her goddaughter and after her suicidal attempt she can't focus on me and I'm helpless cause I can't help her overcoming that weird state of mind.
Another time she says she's not afraid of me but more like her reaction. I'm tired. Wanna move on. I told her to hit me up when she's ready. But I won't be waiting forever. Sounds like lack of trust. She never gave me the phone number cause she's scared of being even more addicted to me.
Doubt I'd wait next year. Feeling deceived. Deep inside I feel it won't work unless I'd come to her town and sent a message: I'm already here, what now? Btw all I know about her zodiac sign she's Pisces. Don't wanna see it as black and white but there's 1 common thing for Pisces - blind dedication to things or people that don't neccesarily are grateful for pisces being overprotective. I know it's not a natal chart or synastry horoscope but maybe Pisces ain't for Scorpio Rising/Taurus Sun and Pisces Moon like myself.
Much obliged if anybody looks into that. I'm learning horary astrology myself but I'm often ocd and hit the wall when it comes to figure out essential dignities and planets debilities table. Solar Fire seems to be too difficult and Astro Gold is too simple, can't find dignities table there. I wanted to do the interpretation myself but I'll just keep reading the book and when I come up with my own idea I'll continue my thread even if somebody replies. Once again thank y'all.
Should I try electional astrology and check transits instead burning the bridge? Then maybe the question could turn out to become "when" rather than "if".
Sadly whenever I ask to visit her she always finds some reasons/excuses like she's sick or has other problems. And last time we were talking she said the problem is with her, not myself and she needs to wait 'til whatever depression is over. I became bitter and felt sorrow. Is it over? Am I chasing my own tail? I always preferred the brutal truth but she's not the kind of person who's gonna say "no". She's like "I want and I don't". It's kinda extending this "agony" like I was supposed to ruin her life. We talk quite a lot about everything including sex but that's just online... When she's like flirty or horny I e.g. ask when should I come and she replies "now". So I don't know if this is some kind of game or not. She's overprotective on her goddaughter and after her suicidal attempt she can't focus on me and I'm helpless cause I can't help her overcoming that weird state of mind.
Another time she says she's not afraid of me but more like her reaction. I'm tired. Wanna move on. I told her to hit me up when she's ready. But I won't be waiting forever. Sounds like lack of trust. She never gave me the phone number cause she's scared of being even more addicted to me.
Doubt I'd wait next year. Feeling deceived. Deep inside I feel it won't work unless I'd come to her town and sent a message: I'm already here, what now? Btw all I know about her zodiac sign she's Pisces. Don't wanna see it as black and white but there's 1 common thing for Pisces - blind dedication to things or people that don't neccesarily are grateful for pisces being overprotective. I know it's not a natal chart or synastry horoscope but maybe Pisces ain't for Scorpio Rising/Taurus Sun and Pisces Moon like myself.
Much obliged if anybody looks into that. I'm learning horary astrology myself but I'm often ocd and hit the wall when it comes to figure out essential dignities and planets debilities table. Solar Fire seems to be too difficult and Astro Gold is too simple, can't find dignities table there. I wanted to do the interpretation myself but I'll just keep reading the book and when I come up with my own idea I'll continue my thread even if somebody replies. Once again thank y'all.
Should I try electional astrology and check transits instead burning the bridge? Then maybe the question could turn out to become "when" rather than "if".