Tryalchemy
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PlutorisingLee Do you know your strongest planets? You probably have strong Pluto or Mars like myself.
The only thing that might reflect the conjunction of moon/mars to my IC is my dad and brother were both born on November 12th, both scorpios, and they would fight violently with each other when I was growing up, like my mom and I would sometimes leave and stay in hotel because it was really bad. But nobody was violent to me. I guess I subconsciously picked up that type of behavior though, because I was so used to being around it, it seemed like a common response, not knowing it was totally not normal to fight like that with people you are close with.
I don't really know what i'm meant to do here. I am an artist, creative in almost everything, I produce electronic and house music, I play guitar and piano, sing, write lyrics, and I used to counsel couples (but I have not been working for the past 2+ years). I didn't end up getting my full degree to become a psychiatrist, so there's a limited amount of things I can do with what I have. I'm good at it though, the psychology, which is so ridiculously obvious from my chart haha, especially the counseling I specialize in. I was thinking of going back to school to work with young kids in anger management, but i'm not sure...I feel like i'm supposed to have my own creative independant type of service/business that sort of combines everything I have to offer people. I'm really not good at working for other people or anything in which the government forces their control over, which is basically everything these days, because I object to anything immoral that I am supposed to abide by, which is why I ended up not getting my degree for psychiatry. I cannot sell things because I refuse to sell something to someone that is not in their best interest, which is why I left the sales industry. Like I can't convince a diabetic person to buy Naked Juice, I can't tell someone recovering from cancer that they need to buy whatever vitamin i'm promoting, it's just so wrong, especially because i'm not ignorant in medicine and overall common sense. Most people do just fine because they wouldn't even think to ask the person if they're diabetic or why exactly they're looking for a vitamin. But jesus christ, to me that's like second nature. Whenever I sold something extremely high in sugar, I always just had to ask anyone who looked over the age of 60 if they're diabetic, because isn't that the moral thing to do? Maybe some people were offended by me asking but i'd rather someone be offended then contribute to something potentially dangerous to them. I'm just so honest, I was horrible at sales. People really, really liked me though, when I worked in sales. They knew they could trust me. I sold things when I told people NOT to buy it! They would buy it and tell me they were buying it because I genuinely seemed like I gave a s*** and asked them how their day was. Isn't that sad, that people will pay just for someone to show that they care? What a society man, this is how lacking in compassion and selflessness we are. These things are something I find myself passion about, things i'd fight for. I care about whether people are safe or not. They could take that Naked juice home, drink two glasses, and go into a coma. How could anyone just ignore these medical facts in sales? Have we no greater good? Have we no decency? One time, a women that was about 86 years old wanted to buy the naked juice, she was a diabetic, she told me she didn't understand what she could or couldn't drink because her doctors didn't explain. I literally put everything away and I took her up and down every single aisle and showed her what is good for her and what she should avoid. I showed her where to look for the sugar. I showed her the diet snapple, I told her about my grandmother who was diabetic, and what she liked that was healthy. These are things I feel like everyone should just do. I could have gotten fired for that, for walking away and not selling the product. I don't care. I know right from wrong. I understand if a person doesn't know anything about health or medicine and they're selling something like that, because they truly don't mean any harm, but since i DO know, it would be wrong to not use that knowledge to make sure people are safe. I'm very intelligent in all different subjects so ignorance is not a card I can play. But yeah, i'm really passionate in that way, it's Neptune for sure. Cause i've had people come up to me and tell me their whole life story and start crying, I guess they sense that they can trust me or something. But I really do care. I remember what every single person would tell me and when I see them again I would ask them about it. Because I really want to know. People need that, you know, they need to be acknowledged and remembered and such simple, easy things, I don't know why so many people are unable to do this. So i'd like to do something where I can use those strengths to make a difference. I don't care how much money I make. I just want to help someone. I don't want anyone to feel like I have ever felt. I would never abandon anyone the way people have abandoned me. Even if I am giving to my own detriment, I believe strongly that it is the right thing to do. I used to give my whole lunch to people who would come into my job if I noticed them shaking, the elderly people, who skip breakfast and then end up with crazy low blood sugar and are about ready to pass out, i'd insist that they sit down next to me and eat the food and would not let them out of my sight until they did. I am very protective. I feel it is my priority to help people. I even act this way with the crows! My god! Sorry I tend to ramble.
Yes I think I am much better suited with men who have feminine qualities because they will let me be the active person who takes care and protects and controls. I can't be submissive, even if I wanted to, I become greatly uncomfortable and irritated by doing so. I get along better with masuline individuals as friends, though, as I am not interested in the things feminine people are usually interested in. It's not surprising my friends always end up being a fire sign. But in relationships that never turned out very well haha.
thelivingsky
Yes that’s what another astrologer told me to do, I looked into it a while back but wasn’t able to figure out how to “turn it off” so to speak. I feel like i’m always “on” no matter what. I feel like it is perhaps the heavy moon/pluto which I cannot escape. That is why I am looking forward to progressing into sagittarius. But I suppose I cannot change my natal promise, if there is a promise that isn’t never ending suffering haha. Whatever it may be. What are your thoughts on occult/magick? I have taken naturally to it since I was about 6…is that just pretty much a given considering what i’ve got going on in my chart? I have been successful in manifesting things however…the only things that seem to obey are that which are under Mars. And I have great difficulty figuring out whether I am going against the natural order of things or not. Am I only able to obtain things pertaining to Mars, Moon, and Pluto?
Witchy one
It’s okay, I always take everything really personally lol. I annoy myself. I am still trying to learn that you cannot accurately judge someones tone and meaning by words alone. The technology makes it harder on people like me. I do better in person so I know how a person means whatever they’re saying. I am just very sensitive because I feel often I am misunderstood and then whenever I am reminded of it I become very strange and despondant and compulsively apologize and feel like retreating and curse myself for being an alien and try to go on and on explaining, with absolute urgency that I have clarified. I know this is greatly enhanced by my anxiety and OCD for sure. I don’t know why, it is always important that I am understood to the point where I keep bringing up the same thing and will repeat myself over and over. I think it’s why I pretty much stopped telling anyone my feelings cause it ends up somehow being a big mess. My best friend, the Leo, he was the only one who understood me exactly in the most strange way and not having him is like, I have nobody to express myself to anymore because I do not feel safe or understood. And I get exhausted because I don’t like to neurotically re-read texts before I send them to make sure I make sense. I don’t know why he understood me but I have not come across anybody else like that. I still text him even though he doesn’t text me back. Because I am used to everyone being a ghost. Maybe one day someone will respond to me from the grave. I am trying to resurrect everyone and everything. I will keep digging even if it kills me.
Gemini888
I think the first 3 people to reply were all Gemini’s hahaha! Go figure right!
The only thing that might reflect the conjunction of moon/mars to my IC is my dad and brother were both born on November 12th, both scorpios, and they would fight violently with each other when I was growing up, like my mom and I would sometimes leave and stay in hotel because it was really bad. But nobody was violent to me. I guess I subconsciously picked up that type of behavior though, because I was so used to being around it, it seemed like a common response, not knowing it was totally not normal to fight like that with people you are close with.
I don't really know what i'm meant to do here. I am an artist, creative in almost everything, I produce electronic and house music, I play guitar and piano, sing, write lyrics, and I used to counsel couples (but I have not been working for the past 2+ years). I didn't end up getting my full degree to become a psychiatrist, so there's a limited amount of things I can do with what I have. I'm good at it though, the psychology, which is so ridiculously obvious from my chart haha, especially the counseling I specialize in. I was thinking of going back to school to work with young kids in anger management, but i'm not sure...I feel like i'm supposed to have my own creative independant type of service/business that sort of combines everything I have to offer people. I'm really not good at working for other people or anything in which the government forces their control over, which is basically everything these days, because I object to anything immoral that I am supposed to abide by, which is why I ended up not getting my degree for psychiatry. I cannot sell things because I refuse to sell something to someone that is not in their best interest, which is why I left the sales industry. Like I can't convince a diabetic person to buy Naked Juice, I can't tell someone recovering from cancer that they need to buy whatever vitamin i'm promoting, it's just so wrong, especially because i'm not ignorant in medicine and overall common sense. Most people do just fine because they wouldn't even think to ask the person if they're diabetic or why exactly they're looking for a vitamin. But jesus christ, to me that's like second nature. Whenever I sold something extremely high in sugar, I always just had to ask anyone who looked over the age of 60 if they're diabetic, because isn't that the moral thing to do? Maybe some people were offended by me asking but i'd rather someone be offended then contribute to something potentially dangerous to them. I'm just so honest, I was horrible at sales. People really, really liked me though, when I worked in sales. They knew they could trust me. I sold things when I told people NOT to buy it! They would buy it and tell me they were buying it because I genuinely seemed like I gave a s*** and asked them how their day was. Isn't that sad, that people will pay just for someone to show that they care? What a society man, this is how lacking in compassion and selflessness we are. These things are something I find myself passion about, things i'd fight for. I care about whether people are safe or not. They could take that Naked juice home, drink two glasses, and go into a coma. How could anyone just ignore these medical facts in sales? Have we no greater good? Have we no decency? One time, a women that was about 86 years old wanted to buy the naked juice, she was a diabetic, she told me she didn't understand what she could or couldn't drink because her doctors didn't explain. I literally put everything away and I took her up and down every single aisle and showed her what is good for her and what she should avoid. I showed her where to look for the sugar. I showed her the diet snapple, I told her about my grandmother who was diabetic, and what she liked that was healthy. These are things I feel like everyone should just do. I could have gotten fired for that, for walking away and not selling the product. I don't care. I know right from wrong. I understand if a person doesn't know anything about health or medicine and they're selling something like that, because they truly don't mean any harm, but since i DO know, it would be wrong to not use that knowledge to make sure people are safe. I'm very intelligent in all different subjects so ignorance is not a card I can play. But yeah, i'm really passionate in that way, it's Neptune for sure. Cause i've had people come up to me and tell me their whole life story and start crying, I guess they sense that they can trust me or something. But I really do care. I remember what every single person would tell me and when I see them again I would ask them about it. Because I really want to know. People need that, you know, they need to be acknowledged and remembered and such simple, easy things, I don't know why so many people are unable to do this. So i'd like to do something where I can use those strengths to make a difference. I don't care how much money I make. I just want to help someone. I don't want anyone to feel like I have ever felt. I would never abandon anyone the way people have abandoned me. Even if I am giving to my own detriment, I believe strongly that it is the right thing to do. I used to give my whole lunch to people who would come into my job if I noticed them shaking, the elderly people, who skip breakfast and then end up with crazy low blood sugar and are about ready to pass out, i'd insist that they sit down next to me and eat the food and would not let them out of my sight until they did. I am very protective. I feel it is my priority to help people. I even act this way with the crows! My god! Sorry I tend to ramble.
Yes I think I am much better suited with men who have feminine qualities because they will let me be the active person who takes care and protects and controls. I can't be submissive, even if I wanted to, I become greatly uncomfortable and irritated by doing so. I get along better with masuline individuals as friends, though, as I am not interested in the things feminine people are usually interested in. It's not surprising my friends always end up being a fire sign. But in relationships that never turned out very well haha.
thelivingsky
Yes that’s what another astrologer told me to do, I looked into it a while back but wasn’t able to figure out how to “turn it off” so to speak. I feel like i’m always “on” no matter what. I feel like it is perhaps the heavy moon/pluto which I cannot escape. That is why I am looking forward to progressing into sagittarius. But I suppose I cannot change my natal promise, if there is a promise that isn’t never ending suffering haha. Whatever it may be. What are your thoughts on occult/magick? I have taken naturally to it since I was about 6…is that just pretty much a given considering what i’ve got going on in my chart? I have been successful in manifesting things however…the only things that seem to obey are that which are under Mars. And I have great difficulty figuring out whether I am going against the natural order of things or not. Am I only able to obtain things pertaining to Mars, Moon, and Pluto?
Witchy one
It’s okay, I always take everything really personally lol. I annoy myself. I am still trying to learn that you cannot accurately judge someones tone and meaning by words alone. The technology makes it harder on people like me. I do better in person so I know how a person means whatever they’re saying. I am just very sensitive because I feel often I am misunderstood and then whenever I am reminded of it I become very strange and despondant and compulsively apologize and feel like retreating and curse myself for being an alien and try to go on and on explaining, with absolute urgency that I have clarified. I know this is greatly enhanced by my anxiety and OCD for sure. I don’t know why, it is always important that I am understood to the point where I keep bringing up the same thing and will repeat myself over and over. I think it’s why I pretty much stopped telling anyone my feelings cause it ends up somehow being a big mess. My best friend, the Leo, he was the only one who understood me exactly in the most strange way and not having him is like, I have nobody to express myself to anymore because I do not feel safe or understood. And I get exhausted because I don’t like to neurotically re-read texts before I send them to make sure I make sense. I don’t know why he understood me but I have not come across anybody else like that. I still text him even though he doesn’t text me back. Because I am used to everyone being a ghost. Maybe one day someone will respond to me from the grave. I am trying to resurrect everyone and everything. I will keep digging even if it kills me.
Gemini888
I think the first 3 people to reply were all Gemini’s hahaha! Go figure right!
