Thanks very much for contributing, R4ven. Without getting too personal, would you please share with us some of the changes you experienced during the transit? You mentioned restlessness--did you feel loss of control until you followed what Pluto wanted you to do, or did you feel YOU overpowered Pluto? What forces did you feel were "controlling" to you? How was your husband? Your kids?
Catatonia
Interesting question, Catatonia, and very relevant, given this is essentially a question about Pluto.
I have a Sun-Pluto conjunction natally, and until that time I had been content to go with the flow of what others expected of me. That is, I had been content to be controlled, and was not fully aware that this was what had been happening. I think at the time of the Pluto square axis, I began to wake up to how this control of me worked, and I didn't like what I found. I began to feel used, and that was not a nice feeling at all.
Catatonia said:
did you feel loss of control until you followed what Pluto wanted you to do, or did you feel YOU overpowered Pluto?
I was definitely at a loss as to what was actually going on, although I felt Pluto's pull for me to make changes which suited
me. This was difficult to do, but eventually I had to do this - for my own survival. And as to
me overpowering Pluto? I've tried that on a few occasions, but it never works. Eventually I left the town and my marriage - took my kids, who were still young enough to just go with the flow.
My former husband has Scorpio Asc, so could not see what I was on about, and also could not understand why what made him happy did not necessarily make
me happy. Definitely a clash of values, which took a number of years to surface for us.
(Just to flesh out this particular picture, with Sun-Pluto conjunct on my natal, my father was a Scorpio Sun, and what he said was `gospel', and not to be questioned. With a quite Scorpionic husband, he thought he'd hit the jackpot when he met me, because I helped him create whatever
he wanted - having watched my mother do that for my father. When I reached the square to my axis, I thought,
"not any more!")
At the time I left my marriage not only did I have a lot of opposition from my husband, but my own family members and my closest friends. It was a very difficult time, but that was 2 years or so
after Pluto had squared my Asc-Desc axis. (At the time I left there were a whole lot of transits and progressions which demanded change, not the least of which was Progr Moon square natal Saturn.)
Leaving my marriage was one of the hardest things I have ever done - chiefly because I had no-one at all `on my side'. Everyone I knew and whose opinion I valued was against what I did, and they all stood at a distance and watched, hoping I'd fail. I know that this was about them, but at the time I felt very alone.
The reason I mention this is that the
sheer power of Pluto's square to the Asc-Desc axis was such that I eventually had to step way out of my comfort zone, and act in a way totally uncharacteristic for me up until that time.
I hope this answers your question. It's a bit garbled as I read it.
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