FiliaVeneris
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Need help interpreting hard aspects
Hey, I'm just looking for a general reading of my chart right now
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Hey, I'm just looking for a general reading of my chart right now
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Hey, everyone.
I'd really appreciate it if someone could help interpret my chart. I've been trying to interpret it on my own, but the more I try to do that, the more I feel like my chart doesn't suit me. Let me explain why.
I seem to have a 10th house stellium. Based on my studies, having a 10th house stellium (especially with the Sun and Jupiter in it) means that you are quite career-oriented and you will focus on that throughout your life. Not only am I half-unemployed right now (I'm a teacher on an indefinite leave), I have never really felt like I was success-oriented. I went to good, prestigious schools and gained recognition along the way, but I was never really the "star student" or the one voted "most likely to succeed". If anything, I've always felt demotivated (which can be attributed to my depression), and so I've never really shone at anything or anywhere in life.
The reason I'm on an indefinite leave is because I feel like teaching isn't really my passion. I took the job because it's something I can do, and something that allows me to be creative, but at the end of the day I still feel like I'm not reaching my full potential as a teacher.
The more I think about my life, the more I regret the fact that I didn't pursue being a performer when I was much younger. I love dancing and singing but I used to do these things only as occasional hobbies, mostly because my parents wanted me to focus more on my studies. And when I entered university, I just wasn't confident enough to pursue those things anymore. Most of the singers and dancers in my school seemed to be talented, untouchable stars who have been training since birth. Compared to them, I felt like I really wasn't that skilled at all.
Interestingly enough, the strong Libra influence in my chart points to an inclination towards the arts. Right now, I really do feel like the performing arts is my passion, but I'm paralysed in fear of rejection and failure. I even looked up my Terpischore just to see where it was in my chart, along with its aspects (even though I still cannot read aspects very well). I suppose I'm posting my chart here because it's screaming "artistic, career-oriented" woman, but I don't feel like that at all right now. Are there placements and aspects which show how I can heal and overcome this? And am I really reading my chart right, or am I just projecting my desires upon it?
I really would appreciate your help. Any additional non-career related insights on my chart are welcome as well, as I am a beginner and I only understand the basics right now. No matter how hard I try, I just cannot seem to understand my own chart, so a reading would be very much appreciated.
Thank you very much for your help.
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