Iām just finding it very difficult to stay open to wounds. After some introspection, with the moon being the feminine in us, I reject that. You think this sounds about right?
Actually, I reject the idea of the inner masculine and feminine. It sounds too much like Jung's sexist views of the anima and animus. Surely in this day of LGTBQ rights, we can recognize gender as fluid and changeable. (As per Meluzina's comment.) Everyone-- unless they have a mental or emotional health disability-- is capable of experiencing lunar tenderness as well as martial raw courage. We don't need to genderize them. (Unless it is appropriate to a specific question being asked.)
I am self confident but my self worth has always been very wavering due to childhood mystifying my concept of self image and love. The women in my family are very alpha and never strong relationships, but quite turmoil and violent (Iām a woman too btw if youāre wondering), so thatās what I learned from.
OK. But you're not stuck repeating their patterns if you don't wish to.
Being on this forum, and even though Iām practically anonymous, I still feel very cautious about being emotionally open. I donāt know about love as others seem to and Iām very much scorpion in relationships and in yet to find somebody who can match it. i seek comfort in my surroundings, so i donāt actively seek people to ādate for moneyā, but itās a high priority because thatās what taking care of myself means to me to be materially and experientially comfortable. Selfish but as hkk said, thatās kind of what weāre living in right now.
Possibly you've noticed that people from wealthy backgrounds are primarily interested in dating other people with wealthy backgrounds.
Plus most people with $$$ who are interested in a committed relationship expect, or at least hope, to be loved for who they are.
Any relationship is subject to break up; and with the breakup, so goes your SO's money.
You're much better off acquiring the job skills and savings habits to float your own boat, and not seeking dependency on another fallible human being. Just a super source of financial advice "for the rest of us" without investment portfolios is Suze Orman.
https://www.suzeorman.com/
Your second and 8th houses should indicate your personal financial strengths and weaknesses.
Initiating a fulfilling relationship involves all kinds of risk. You have to believe in yourself: that you are strong enough to withstand rejection, a break-up, or a relationship with someone who is not the good person you thought s/he was. That's just the way it goes.
But playing it oh-so safe leaves you-- exactly where? And for how many years?
hahaha! some people just couldn't draw a line between being powerful and being a parasite even if it saved their life! By the way, it's unbelievable but seems that in the end, vengenfuls act don't really deliver what they promise like comfort or whatever.