The lesson here and with every Saturn harsh aspect is that you have to find your true self,to realize that you are not your ego,that the life experiences don't have to define who you are.When you get to that point,you'll be free.
This is something I'm trying to learn.
I realize I am easily shaped by my experiences in a bad way.
I take what happens to me and let it put me down immensely.
For example, I was truly affected by a co-worker that refused to help me when I asked for his help politely. I felt rejected and that maybe it was because of me, personally, that he didn't want to help. My whole night was ruined by his behavior... It increased my depression.
Looking back at that, I should have looked at it this way- that was his choice, and it hurt that he didn't want to help, but I'm doing a good job without his help anyway. I should reassure myself with positive affirmations. Plus, he probably was in a bad mood.
His, or anyone's, choices do not define me, it is my own choices that define me.
There is this quote, "You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches.”
and
"The world is filled with people who, no matter what you do, will point blank not like you. But it is also filled with those who will love you fiercely. They are your people.
You are not for everything and that’s OK. Talk to the people who can hear you..."
If I were a painting of a beautiful ocean of pink, some people will walk right by me and not notice or like me, but there are some that might actually appreciate and like me.
I am still beautiful in my own way, I just need to stop focusing on those that don't see me in that way.
“We all have a life to live! We all have unique and distinctive purposes to fulfill! Everybody has a purpose on earth, and everybody must live the true purpose why God gives life to us each day! You are not on earth to compete with anybody but your true purpose. You are not on earth to compare yourself to anybody, but the you in you and the true purpose for which you came here! Life is good when you don’t compare yourself in a manner that will make you feel bad. Life is good when you know your true purpose in life and who you must live to be and to please! You fulfill your true you distinctively when you understand you are you and not anybody! So many people are living others destiny just because they have neglected their own true purpose! So many people think badly just because they compare themselves wrongfully with others and things! Everybody has a life and everybody must live a life! If there is any reason to compare yourself to others and things, let it be the inspiration you get from comparing yourself with others and things that makes you do something unique! There is a true reason for our existence on earth and we must reason from nothing, but the true reason why we live each day!”
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I have Saturn squaring my Moon, Mercury, Venus, and Midheaven...
and boy oh boy has it been very troubling for me with these aspects...
Lots of loneliness, depression, anxiety, etc...
But i think what's been working for me is to stop comparing and just live my life..whatever that may be because i am still trying to figure it out... but i am currently trying to just work on myself
for myself.
I also want to add that I had a long-term friendship with someone that made me feel like a mother to her rather than an actual friend.
Her Saturn and chiron squared my moon, mercury, venus, and midheaven, just like my natal.
Our friendship lasted about 9 years until she finally found a boyfriend and I was allowed to be set free of a draining relationship....
Unfortunately, she is dealing with some major issues regarding him, but i told her she needs to see a therapist for the problem she was having. I've helped her with almost everything in life, but this time, I am in no good mental/emotional state to help or have the knowledge to help her with what she's dealing with. I don't want her to see me as if i have all the answers because i don't, and if i'm always helping her, she'll never be able to do things on her own and I'll never be able to work on my own personal problems.
I helped her best i could, but now i cannot anymore, i need to work on myself.
Plus, she was not supportive of me when I had severe panic attacks...and she'd get mad at me for having depression... our relationship was co-dependent and it needed to end.
Although i still care for her and love her, it's just that we need to live our own lives, and our lives have become too different to collide harmoniously.
Our life together was similar to having two sick people trying to help each other get better only to stay sick. That's not good...