I have a kind of funny situation! I'm heading south to a gathering in mid-October. My ex and his fiance will be there. I've come to find that they're a bit apprehensive of me being there, and now I'm definitely questioning myself. I have a bunch of different reasons for going, and one of them would be to hopefully mend some bridges and heal some wounds. I haven't seen them in about 19 months! we've gone off and on trying to have a friendship, but alas, there has been pain in that regard. She and I still talk occasionally.
After booking my tickets to go, I found out that Venus will be retrograde. hahaha but of course! I am the ex coming back into the picture -- d'oh!
I don't harbor any romantic feelings for him, I don't want him back - it's been years, and the pain I feel around the breakup isn't associated with him any longer either. I still love these two in a genuine way, but now I fear they don't have the same feelings, and not even that but that they barely tolerate me.
I'm feeling really good and confident lately, very loving and ready to move on in one way or another with these two.
So I asked horary, 'Is he looking forward to seeing me?', although I think really the question is 'are they', and I'm getting a fat no. I use him as the 7th house given our past history, and even still if he were the 11th house of friends he'd still be a stationed Venus in Scorpio in my 12th house, in detriment.
What do you all see in this chart? Should I be making other plans? ugh.
After booking my tickets to go, I found out that Venus will be retrograde. hahaha but of course! I am the ex coming back into the picture -- d'oh!
I don't harbor any romantic feelings for him, I don't want him back - it's been years, and the pain I feel around the breakup isn't associated with him any longer either. I still love these two in a genuine way, but now I fear they don't have the same feelings, and not even that but that they barely tolerate me.
I'm feeling really good and confident lately, very loving and ready to move on in one way or another with these two.
So I asked horary, 'Is he looking forward to seeing me?', although I think really the question is 'are they', and I'm getting a fat no. I use him as the 7th house given our past history, and even still if he were the 11th house of friends he'd still be a stationed Venus in Scorpio in my 12th house, in detriment.
What do you all see in this chart? Should I be making other plans? ugh.