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There are a few indicators in your chart that suggest that you may come off strong, in various flavors: Moon-Pluto at apex of the chart, Moon-Pluto opposite Jupiter, Mercury at Ascendant, Mars in Aries at cusp of 3rd and squaring Sun.
At the same time you may not FEEL that you are coming off strong, with Sun-Neptune conjunct in 12h, also joined in wide conjunction by Saturn. and Leo intercepted in 7h. The Sun-Neptune piece can be extremely porous, sensitive, and raw, especially in 12h. You might use the "strong" aspects to protect or defend this sensitivity.
What about not looking for a reaction, and just -- observing?
All the things you are saying make sense on a broad level. When you look at your chart specifically, though:
What do you make of the early Aquarian Mercury on ASC square late Arian Mars on 3d cusp? 3rd house also relates to communication, not only Mercury. Could there be any conflict embedded in the way you communicate that comes to the surface (difference between what you present and your basic identity principle)? Because Aquarius and Aries are sextile signs, harmonious, it may be a little harder for you to perceive the inner conflict.
It is a wide square, just at the orb of relevance, but given that we are discussing bullying in the career and Scorpio rules your MC, it's likely important. Moon-Pluto is also there, amplifying any internal conflicts you haven't worked out, like a loudspeaker. It can feel really intense to others, making them want to look for a social solution to their discomfort.
Mercury rules your SN in Virgo 8h, so it is cool but at the same time VERY involved, always cutting and clarifying things in relational space to orient itself.
I am fully confident you can get over all the pains in your chart with Jupiter in 4th ruling your NN, and none of these things are permanent features, you just have to put in the spiritual attention to get over them. Your chart has a lot of political gifts, but you don't get there without growing pains. Astrology is probably a good side study for you to improve self knowledge - that's why most of us are here. Good luck!
Well, I don't know.
In general with Pluto, Neptune kind of issues, you can try sensitizing yourself a little to the group dynamics that seem humorous to you, and keep a lower profile there. You find a way to keep your uniqueness from being jagged and rough.
In one of my workplaces there was a boundary between departments that got mixed up. So a row of marketing people ended up sitting next to a programmer who stashed weeks' worth of empty caffeine drink bottles under the desk. Maybe the people in his group would have looked twice, because they caffeinate heavily but it's weird. But to the marketers, it was practically traumatic.
Can you say more about what happens?
Oh, funny. I'm Sagittarius but resonate with your example -- gossip drives me kind of insane. But you can't be the chilly judgmental one all the time, just go with the flow in a low toxicity way so the energy doesn't turn on you.
Yeah. What if you just think of them as working through their own issues and thoughts and trying to figure out how THEY should behave and be? Rather than thinking of them as trying to destroy others.
You have a Mercury - Jupiter nodal axis as well
How did you get hired by a boss who gives you dirty looks?
im a guy who minds his business yet people for example in almost every job that i ve been in my life they will always try to sabotage or bring me down or coworkers will usually form an alliance of hate against me backstab and talk lies to the boss for me.
people can jealous of me so EASILY i mean literally for nothing...
i mean wtf .....im no rich, nor some handsome model man....not having a huge position in society
i mean... something that will result in attracting jealousy envy and haters yet all these situations are happening to me.
as i said im a guy who minds his business and im not a ''showoff'' so i dont understand whytf these things always sooner or later will happen.
the irony here is when i end up ''confronting'' all these evil people then they act like i am the one who is the ''bully'' and the bad guy.....(bunch of hypocrites)
yet it started by them...
they always end up playing the victim and try forming an alliance with other backstabbing haters in order to destroy me.
i mean we live in a psychopathic society dont we?