I am glad to hear that therapy is helping with some of your internalized issues, for that can be helpful in offsetting the imbalance leftover from the past. In doing the necessary work :
- Is there any indication of what having a North Node in the 7th house would promise me in terms of relationships (especially as it's conjunct Venus)?
So the North Node is about what we are meant to be working on in this life for our own karmic/spiritual development. In contrast the South Node shows what holds us back from our spiritual equalization and balance in the physical world.
Let’s look more closely at the stellium of Sagittarius energy, which transitions from the 7th to the 8th H in your chart.
On the one hand you can be pleasant in nature and readily attract relationships through physical attraction: Do you feel this to be true?
On its own, this conjunction suggests that on the Soul Level, you are meant to be seeking after love at its highest and truest level of expression, rather than merely for superficial reasons.
-beauty and love will be a definite focus in your life, especially if expressed through the creative arts [Moon in 5th], but this may have be hindered by the Saturn/Moon opposition. Note that Venus / North Node is at the midpoint of the T- Square, suggesting that there is also tension being held here at the inner level of the psyche.
First you must learn to quell the intensity of your internal dialogue [Mercury/Pluto in Scorpio] that can create misunderstandings with others;
the contrast of Mercury/Pluto in Scorpio relates more to the secretive and penetrating communication style that you more readily express, in contrast to the more easygoing side of Sagittarius.
So while you may have some benefits noted through your 7thH and relationships, the implications of the t-square involving Saturn oppose the Moon further imply difficulties in relationships due to a lack of ‘awareness and understanding’ about the true purpose and meaning of intimate relationships.
This particular t-square shows that hindrances involve issues of low self-esteem and lack of self worth that were developed in childhood and carried through into the present.
Do you find yourself often being pulled in two different directions because of this?
The contrast between the Nodes often defines the need for an appropriate balancing of your inner consciousness [the specific set of your ‘sails as they are set in this lifetime’ as determined largely by childhood influences and teachings].
With this particular set up in your chart, it is through Venus that you may be able to project the more positive traits of Sagittarius, while your conditioned methods of communication [Mercury and Pluto: penetrating, bullying, obsessive, compulsive] can interfere with the ease in which you are understood by others. The NN primarily points to where you are ‘meant’ to be going, while in contrast the South Node represents your past karma that is needing to be released. The polarity of this axis often defines the need for balance of your inner consciousness at the level of the psyche that is necessary. These are issues that need to be addressed, especially around the time of the Saturn return.
Hindrances to the natural expression of the NN is depicted by:
- the t-square aspect that involves Saturn/Moon in opposition, while each also squares the Venus/Node.
Saturn in our charts shows the limitations we set for ourselves through fear or insecurity and relates to the karmic lessons we are needing to learn in this
lifetime:
Saturn/Moon: distance, separation and problems relating to the parental input, especially through the mother in early childhood; prone to depressive tendencies due to emotional disequilibrium. This opposition alone can serve to diminish the sense of self into adulthood.
Natal Saturn in the 11th :
- Learning to trust your own intuition, rather than following the lead of other people’s ideas and belief systems.
-avoidance of group interactions?
-troubles in trusting others, due to insecurity
- Feelingings of alienation in terms of social interactions may be grounded in the sense of low self-esteem
-learning to trust and try new things from time to time,
As such the Saturn return is about having the awareness and consciousness to
reassert the Identity in a more balanced way. Letting go of childhood fears and perceived weaknesses [the South Node] is a necessary part of the healing. Coming to terms with your authentic and true ‘spiritual self’ [the North Node] occurs according to your own attempts at healing yourself and the removal of unnecessary blockages.
Above all, the key is about learning to forgive the past and move on with greater confidence about who you are and what you are here to do.
Read more here:
http://northnodeastrology.blogspot.com/search/label/Saturn%20Return
By the way, Today is the Full Moon occurring in Pisces: this is a time for insight and clarification, accenting the need to identify and express our spiritual needs while maintaining order on the physical level.
If you need clarification on any of my input, just ask. You can contact me directly through
kimbermoon@gmail.com. I’m happy to keep our dialogue happening, if you so desire.
Blessed be.