Hello,
I have some time, so will share what's going on. I will try not to make it too long. If I do, please skip to the bottom.
I met M about 4-5 years ago, acting as a "wing-man" for my friend who had a huge crush on him. Within the first minute I thought, "he's my soul mate." But put that thought out of my mind and him in the "can't do it" category. I didn't know this until recently, but I convinced him to move here for a bit before moving to the east coast. I haven't seen him all this time.
This last February, he came out here for one of his art openings. My friend now has a boyfriend and seemed disinterested in going to the show. I decided to go with my ex (now great friend), who was good friends with M. Again, I thought "he's my soul mate," but is no longer in the "can't do it" category. At the end of the opening M & I dropped my ex off (at my house, he sleeps on the couch sometimes if he's too tired to drive home), and we spent the rest of the evening together. Then ended up spending the rest of his time in town together. It was beautiful and so much fun!
We have kept in touch, and do video chats once a week. I am going to NY this Thursday to visit for the weekend. He said he was excited but a little freaked out because he had a bad experience a couple years ago with another girl visiting him. I was excited and thought I'm a different person, and we'll have a grand ole time. Then on our last talk (this last Sunday), he said he was worried that I want to have a long distance relationship with him, and it's not something he can do right now. I'm hoping that was just an expression of fear, but I am crestfallen.
I thought we both felt IT. Was I wrong? Is there hope for us?
I appreciate your time and interpretations, and any advice you may have.
I have some time, so will share what's going on. I will try not to make it too long. If I do, please skip to the bottom.
I met M about 4-5 years ago, acting as a "wing-man" for my friend who had a huge crush on him. Within the first minute I thought, "he's my soul mate." But put that thought out of my mind and him in the "can't do it" category. I didn't know this until recently, but I convinced him to move here for a bit before moving to the east coast. I haven't seen him all this time.
This last February, he came out here for one of his art openings. My friend now has a boyfriend and seemed disinterested in going to the show. I decided to go with my ex (now great friend), who was good friends with M. Again, I thought "he's my soul mate," but is no longer in the "can't do it" category. At the end of the opening M & I dropped my ex off (at my house, he sleeps on the couch sometimes if he's too tired to drive home), and we spent the rest of the evening together. Then ended up spending the rest of his time in town together. It was beautiful and so much fun!
We have kept in touch, and do video chats once a week. I am going to NY this Thursday to visit for the weekend. He said he was excited but a little freaked out because he had a bad experience a couple years ago with another girl visiting him. I was excited and thought I'm a different person, and we'll have a grand ole time. Then on our last talk (this last Sunday), he said he was worried that I want to have a long distance relationship with him, and it's not something he can do right now. I'm hoping that was just an expression of fear, but I am crestfallen.
I thought we both felt IT. Was I wrong? Is there hope for us?
I appreciate your time and interpretations, and any advice you may have.