Meditator...well I don't think so! When I was younger I was thinking either English Literature or Psychology...Now I'm thinking of teaching a language or sth more artistic like painting/ making jewelry, dancing/acting.. Do you see any artistic tendencies? Thanks for your response!
Moon Rules your MC and it's in Gemini, it's trine Mercury in Libra and Trine Venus in Virgo although both are out of sign which makes them slightly weaker.
With Gemini ruled MC and trine Venus, I definitely see the gift for language, maybe signing/acting or Literature as you said. You do have a talent for art as well. Overall, you are ruled by Mercurial things due to your ASC ruled being in Libra which is ruled by Venus in Virgo ruled by Mercury; Your Sun is in Virgo ruled by Mercury, your Moon in Gemini ruled by Mercury, and the MC in Cancer which is ruled by your Moon in Gemini. Everything seems to connect back to Mercury. Mercury liked variety and if very good with words, logic, and working with their hands. You also have a pleasant voice i believe and might like singing. This seems to fit with what you mention above with English Lit, acting, jewlry making, ect. The other noteworthy thing to mention is your Sun and Venus square Uranus and Saturn. You might find yourself becoming bored easily with whatever you are doing. I think a job that has variety and one that is non routine or one you find very stimulation should be the goal here. You lack confidence however, I suspect your father was a little hard on you or maybe he made you feel like you didn't measure up in some way. Try not to let your frustrations prevent you from taking chances.
Try looking up Mercury careers and see if anything resonates.