Re: Grand Cross
I have lots of squares, and T-Squares, but no Grand Cross.
The key words that help me with squares and oppositions:
Squares represent friction between the two planets. The solution is to pick one over the other. Find a work around. The purpose of the square is to help you evolve. There is no comfort in doing nothing. So you work around. It's like losing good eyesight for tiny detailed work, and so one changes the direction of one's work to be less reliant on that skill. I found it was easier for me to watch when the squares when my TSquare were triggered, and watch the choices I had a few times, before I could begin to get a handle on the meaning of the whole T Squrae in my Natal Chart which represents my entire life.
On the oppositions, the puzzle is different. What you have is representatives (planets) from two opposing teams (opposite signs) pulling on you. The recommendation is to find a compromise.
So you have Saturn in 12th Leo opposing Mars in 6th Aquarius.
The conflict between Leo and Aquarius, to me, is that Leo is personal, expressive and attention attracting, and Aquarius represents groups, politics, and the need to reform society, no room for "personal problems", all for the cause. The compromise could be take advantage of Leo's way of attracting people, and use that collect people behind some reformation movement. But that's only one way to combine the two.
Now adding the effect of the 6th and 12th house, we have problem the hidden matters of the 12 th house, and good health practices of the 6th are at odds with each other. One way, using the character of the signs, is to identify your health practices with those of established groups -- like the Mediterranean diet -- macrobiotic diet, etc. in lieu of giving away the private twists you prefer, and even consider joining some secret society's which help promote good character, and health practices.
Saturn in the 12 th, in Leo, on its own means you are here to learn some tough rules about of 12th house Leo. What responsibilities are there to in the sign of Leo? FairPlay comes to mind. Leo can be about the fund and the games, but Saturn in there may be pointing out the need master the game with fair play. And when it comes to weaving a compromise with group loving reformist Aquarius Mars in the opposite corner, what better deal than to advocate (Mars) for the Fair Play rules, thereby reforming the society of your 6th House. What is that society? That's the house of good habits, mentoring, being mentored, employment, employer, employee, where the general theme is -- service -- what service will you give or receive to make good health, good work conditions, good support environment, so that your base needs are maintained and you can go to the next step -- House 7, of partnerships.
Example of a person combining your opposition:
I know someone who merely runs the clock at the road races. He got into it, because it upset him that the practices varied widely, and he knew how to set up routines and equipment to standardize it fairly (Saturn in Leo). He knew it would help, if the runners would know and use these procedures when they practiced too. His Leo role was in the background (12th house) of these races, but his impact was for reform (Aquarius).
Mars stands for initiator, competitor, warrior, advocate, etc.
I think Mars in Aquarius most often means Advocate for some one who is not properly represented in governed group, like patients in a hospital.
But then again, so often the Aquarian expression is not for the individual, it is for a group of people (or their environment).
BTW: A Virgo Ascendant, suggests the person is known for being a hard worker, and is capable of effecting details of their work to perfection!!! Nothing to dislike about that! This alone would make you wanted, not unwanted.
However, the experience of having Moon in the 9th, may have blinded you to the fact that you have some fixed opinions and judgments about how things or people should be, and as kind as may try to be, these leak out and put off people when you are stressed. You may try to keep this material to yourself, but it will come out in bits and pieces anyway. It's up to you to own the problem, and choose to evolve to a better person. As to what that is, is up to you to surmise, try, test, adjust and figure out. Most people have conflicts within their character. Only some people use these to move themselves along. Bet you can, too.
Now let's look at the Moon and Uranus opposition.
The Moon in Taurus wants everything calm, all the time, no change.
Moon in Taurus has no need for modern times or equipment to complicate things.
Uranus in Scorpio was big changes, suddenly!
Uranus in Scorpio thrives on using technology for sudden change!
Solution:
Some days, the Moon might realize that Uranus's tools can do her a lot of good, like using sunscreen to sunbathe a lot!
Other days, Uranus might get Moon past being bullheaded about something, with a Quick Change, that gets it over with, so the Moon can go back to being Ms. Mellow.
Example:
I know a man who could have a hideous temper with employees who could not keep up with him. He had great physical strength. As he aged, and felt the sadness of what he'd been doing, he did a better job of apologizing, holding his temper, and focusing on the goal of everyone getting work done, instead of just himself. Eventually that wasn't enough in his mind. He went further. He brought in technology that would leverage the work of the weaker ones, allowing them to keep up with the pace of the work. See how that represents the Moon opposite Uranus?
All in all --
The more you become aware of the conflicts in your own values (as in the squares and oppositions) within you, and you consciously weave solutions, rather than project them on others (as though they have the problem), blame them on others (like they caused you to have the problem), or deny they exist ("What problem? No problem here.") , the more mastery you will have over your natal chart and the wider options you have on your future.
I like astrology becaues it helps me figure out what part of the conflict is mine, and what part is not.
I hope I was able to describe this in a way that entices you to work on your own puzzles, and enjoy it, for many many years.
For the time being, is there anything you can make, or grow and sell, even on a small scale? What are the rules for being a vendor of any sorts where you live, say on Saturday morning, or at a neighborhood fare? I know that making food to eat, requires lots of expensive equipment and licensing, usually. What about other things? This may not be vastly profitable, but it gives you experience, and it is in the direction of your North Node, where you want to go, in this life.