AquaVenusian
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Hello friends!!
recently, after a few years of psychoanalysis, I became aware of being a transgender man.... and this gave me immeasurable internal happiness and relief.
I go to therapy with my psychoanalyst and a psychiatrist, last year I was diagnosed with depression and currently I take medication... I had a little resistance in believing that I had depression, but now the reasons behind the diagnosis, everything made a lot of sense to me... for example, my poor self-image and never being satisfied with my appearance... I did everything to repress my masculine energy, I became an exemplary business woman, the thin elegant woman who constantly takes care of her appearance.. .but I never felt enough, I never felt satisfied with my appearance, if I was thin I avoided checking my weight for fear of not being at enough weight, if I gained weight I also avoided checking my weight so as not to face the reality of having failed and loosened my grip... and now it's finally reached my limit and I can no longer contain this masculine energy that I've repressed so much throughout my life, my desire has blossomed into exploring this energy even against my own prejudices, moreover, I am once again breaking a taboo with this, because I was prejudiced against being a lesbian before becoming one and I was prejudiced against being transgender and now I want to become one.
Next week I'm going to consult a specialist in endocrinology and I already want to start my hormone therapy
I have been studying astrology more focused on my self knowledge for 13 years and I would like to discuss the points in my chart that could indicate these newly discovered issues.... I have some thoughts and would like you to share yours with me.... soooo what do you think?
P.S: another thing that I REALLY want to discuss about your thoughts is in this aspect sun square pluto .... because I already read a lot about it and there is an astrologer / psychologist with a youtube channel called (Jewel Mayberry) she said that one of the possibilities from this aspect is the almost impossible union that the individual could make between the conscious and the unconscious ... my masculine energy has always been very unconscious for me, and now I want and I will develop make it conscious as much as I can. ... as you can see my square is very tight ... could this have anything to do with my self discovery of being transgender??
I truly believe that by living the experience as a woman and now as a man on my next saturn return I may be able to balance both experiences as a man and as a woman and become a complete, unique and balanced human being, because this is a unconscious goal aimed and desired by me.
recently, after a few years of psychoanalysis, I became aware of being a transgender man.... and this gave me immeasurable internal happiness and relief.
I go to therapy with my psychoanalyst and a psychiatrist, last year I was diagnosed with depression and currently I take medication... I had a little resistance in believing that I had depression, but now the reasons behind the diagnosis, everything made a lot of sense to me... for example, my poor self-image and never being satisfied with my appearance... I did everything to repress my masculine energy, I became an exemplary business woman, the thin elegant woman who constantly takes care of her appearance.. .but I never felt enough, I never felt satisfied with my appearance, if I was thin I avoided checking my weight for fear of not being at enough weight, if I gained weight I also avoided checking my weight so as not to face the reality of having failed and loosened my grip... and now it's finally reached my limit and I can no longer contain this masculine energy that I've repressed so much throughout my life, my desire has blossomed into exploring this energy even against my own prejudices, moreover, I am once again breaking a taboo with this, because I was prejudiced against being a lesbian before becoming one and I was prejudiced against being transgender and now I want to become one.
Next week I'm going to consult a specialist in endocrinology and I already want to start my hormone therapy
I have been studying astrology more focused on my self knowledge for 13 years and I would like to discuss the points in my chart that could indicate these newly discovered issues.... I have some thoughts and would like you to share yours with me.... soooo what do you think?
P.S: another thing that I REALLY want to discuss about your thoughts is in this aspect sun square pluto .... because I already read a lot about it and there is an astrologer / psychologist with a youtube channel called (Jewel Mayberry) she said that one of the possibilities from this aspect is the almost impossible union that the individual could make between the conscious and the unconscious ... my masculine energy has always been very unconscious for me, and now I want and I will develop make it conscious as much as I can. ... as you can see my square is very tight ... could this have anything to do with my self discovery of being transgender??
I truly believe that by living the experience as a woman and now as a man on my next saturn return I may be able to balance both experiences as a man and as a woman and become a complete, unique and balanced human being, because this is a unconscious goal aimed and desired by me.
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