I have this aspect and i have to say i can relate a lot to the descriptions. Not an easy aspect, not at all.
It all began when i started elementary school. Everything was so alien to me, i was like very paranoid. For some reason i saw everyone as my enemy. "
DON'T TRUST ANYONE" was my favorite quote from Stone Cold, because it was so true for me. Also i wasn't interested in people, there was nothing good about them and i could rely on myself alone. Why would i need them? I was trying to avoid people at that point, but, when i couldn't, i knew i had to attack. To make it all worse, i was pretty naive and i was very small compared to other kids. They saw me as someone they could take advantage of, or did they? That's what i thought at that time and, when they started teasing and bullying me, all of my suspicions were proven true. I grew frustrated and resentful, i hated them all. I made some friends though, i don't remember how i managed to do that. The thing is i don't remember ever seeing them as enemies, there was something in them that made me trust them. Little by little i began to understand what friendship meant. But i never forgot about "enmity". If you were not my friend, you were my enemy. Ironically, those who were bullying me at first also became my friends. They told me and my other friends "
you guys are tough" or something like that. At this point i became what i always fought against. Me and my "gang" liked to beat the **** out of those kids who we regarded as "weak".
Before i started secondary school, my parents decided to transfer me to another school. Same old story began to repeat itself, but this time i was more in control of myself. At that age i started to show more interest in my math, psychology, philosophy and astrology. I was becoming "nerdy", which brushed many people the wrong way. However i didn't give a **** and if some ******* dared to ***** with me, i would just teach him a lesson. Btw, i was not physically strong, but i relied a lot on sneak attacks and "dirty fighting". After some encounters, people knew i was not someone to ***** with. Or so i assumed, because people started avoiding me. It took me like 2 years to make friends again. This Gemini dude i was best friends with suggested me i should do some meditation about how i approached society. So i did, and i started to realize things about myself, which explained a lot about the way people approached me. I was becoming more aware of people's emotions, i could actually relate to people. I felt like my mind was opening to new things, which made me really happy. Also people started to approach me more, i made many friends. I also noticed people respected me a lot, calling me "Sir" (not sarcastic, in a polite way) sometimes. I was not used to receive such treatment at all, and that also made me very happy.
When i read about Sun square Pluto what i thought was "oh man, that's me!". It's an aspect that
gives you some "antisocial" traits. I've dealt with this most of my life and i'm still here giving my best to master it. People are no longer afraid of me, but i have some problems to connect with them. I need to work those out.
It would be great to see another story and insights. Hope i didn't bore you guys
Peace.