Firstly, English is not my native language so I apologize for any bad grammar.
My name is Gaj and i got in to astrology about a year ago, just when (as i discovered soon enough) my Saturn started returning. I can also feel all the clustered scorpionic/plutonic energy in me.. sometimes a great feeling, other times a terrible one.
Did anyone else with a similar chart, get an immense urge to transform and become /i don't even know in what way exactly yet/ better and of service to the world, around your 28 birthday?
short version of me (I will of course share specifics if someone wants me to):
3-14 yrs old: Single mom (Virgo sun, Leo rising); she wanted a Scorpio child on purpose, She pushed me quite a lot trough primary school, I got straight As, wasn't very popular with classmates, I also had talent for painting drawing.
14-22: Entered high school as the "Cool Kid", was very popular, could get any girl I wanted (still can, it's all about effort , got addicted to being in love, hate(d) one night stands, Got a long time best friend to be my girlfriend at 20, became creative and even known in my country for music.. BUT: was a rebel, didn't finish school the regular way (I think on purpose), smoked pot, drunk a lot..
22-27: Worked a lot of different jobs; from bar tending to technical sales, accounting and then systems engineering which i still do, I learn very fast but have absolutely no driving force for things that don't interest me, luckily I have a lot of interests, I just have problems with schools. I mostly gathered all the knowledge I have by myself. BREAKDOWN I broke up with a 7 year GF and best friend of most of my life (she left). Rage, jealousy, broken. Did a revenge thing with a girl, will NEVER do it again, i still feel sick. But still I never want to engage in longer conversations with my ex again. Heavy drinking period, shame, no purpose
27-now: Met a very very very special girl and am still with her (Cancer Sun, Sagittarius Moon, Libra rising), first real love..i have and am experiencing it (the most beautiful thing accessible to anyone in mortal form), she also sparked a long lost interest in astrology. When i read the first book i became a sponge - another thing I love now. BUT I have an intense urge to transform in to a better person, to shed my ever persisting jealousy and possessiveness so I wont hurt my love anymore, I also want to shed my anxiety and mistrust toward change, new places and people.. I feel like Saturn and the other bunch is pushing me hard for better or worse.
Thanks for any contribution and peace
My name is Gaj and i got in to astrology about a year ago, just when (as i discovered soon enough) my Saturn started returning. I can also feel all the clustered scorpionic/plutonic energy in me.. sometimes a great feeling, other times a terrible one.
Did anyone else with a similar chart, get an immense urge to transform and become /i don't even know in what way exactly yet/ better and of service to the world, around your 28 birthday?
short version of me (I will of course share specifics if someone wants me to):
3-14 yrs old: Single mom (Virgo sun, Leo rising); she wanted a Scorpio child on purpose, She pushed me quite a lot trough primary school, I got straight As, wasn't very popular with classmates, I also had talent for painting drawing.
14-22: Entered high school as the "Cool Kid", was very popular, could get any girl I wanted (still can, it's all about effort , got addicted to being in love, hate(d) one night stands, Got a long time best friend to be my girlfriend at 20, became creative and even known in my country for music.. BUT: was a rebel, didn't finish school the regular way (I think on purpose), smoked pot, drunk a lot..
22-27: Worked a lot of different jobs; from bar tending to technical sales, accounting and then systems engineering which i still do, I learn very fast but have absolutely no driving force for things that don't interest me, luckily I have a lot of interests, I just have problems with schools. I mostly gathered all the knowledge I have by myself. BREAKDOWN I broke up with a 7 year GF and best friend of most of my life (she left). Rage, jealousy, broken. Did a revenge thing with a girl, will NEVER do it again, i still feel sick. But still I never want to engage in longer conversations with my ex again. Heavy drinking period, shame, no purpose
27-now: Met a very very very special girl and am still with her (Cancer Sun, Sagittarius Moon, Libra rising), first real love..i have and am experiencing it (the most beautiful thing accessible to anyone in mortal form), she also sparked a long lost interest in astrology. When i read the first book i became a sponge - another thing I love now. BUT I have an intense urge to transform in to a better person, to shed my ever persisting jealousy and possessiveness so I wont hurt my love anymore, I also want to shed my anxiety and mistrust toward change, new places and people.. I feel like Saturn and the other bunch is pushing me hard for better or worse.
Thanks for any contribution and peace
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