I use to write and enjoyed exercise. This def made me aware of my obsessive nature… processing and going through memories, like omg you missed this and this….Nothing in my chart hints at the art of detachment lol. I have a Pisces MC and I’ve worried about a career choice since I was ten. I have something for the world I know I do, it’s just so elusive and I thrive on routine, yet, feel confined at the same time and I get bored. A lot of woman would love my position…I can go and be and do whatever I want, but I had to snap out of mourning.My focus was a happy family. It changed and it’s weird to not be focused on any kinda romance lol. I’m too young to be a dang crone, but, here I am. I think I’m meant to teach children the importance of self love… that old saying, those that can do… those who can’t, teach. Kinda like 33/6 thing. Ive heard we can be late bloomers if we make it and don’t self sacrifice for others in the process. Girl I am over that mess lol.I have my natal Saturn in my fifth house too. I have noticed the dark side of mothers, and have felt it from my mother too. It pushes me away. When my mother is conscious of it, I feel safer. I reckon the best thing to do is to let him be. He will come around, I’m sure of it. It just might not be when you want it to be.
You still have to live your life. Love from afar. It could be a good time to tap into your creativity. Expressing this pain through a creative outlet could help. Helps get it out of you, and lessens the pain.