Caro, thanks for your reply. I never realized how much influence the 5th house really played in my life until some reading I did last night. In my first career, I was a professional bassoonist. Music allowed the expression of creativity, the discipline of classical music satisfied Saturn and self healing attending to chiron. I never got along with conductors(father figures), haha, not many do.
Now I am a massage therapist and own my business and play musical theater when I like.
I have only recently dated in the traditional sense. My younger involvements seemed more circumstantial with no relationship lasting longer than 6 months. Only recently have I gone out on dates. Still with no success. I am hopeful, but realize there is nothing casual about me concerning relationships. It's either you are my partner or the highway. My feeling is that I don't want to waste my time on something superficial.
Wow, Kellfire66...I thought I wrote this. I have Saturn conjunct Chiron in the 5th in Pisces natally (born Aug of 65), and majored on the bassoon in college, then later had a 16 year career as a massage therapist! I have never wanted kids but do want love, which, having a hammer head of Venus/Pluto/Uranus (in Virgo) opposite these, has made it very difficult indeed. I have fallen for teachers and unavailable types. And soon, transiting Chiron will be conjunct Saturn (and then Chiron). Oh joy! :->