Hi
@Ancar thanks so much for sharing your thoughts.
I must say, I relate with everything you have written!
I have had difficult karma this lifetime too and I felt hurt and betrayed by my family when I was younger. It was only after being given a succession of past life memories in January 2019 time, that my soul could really and truly understand the coldness and indifference and basicallly a lack of love from my family.
Well, when I murdered someone in a previous life, who incarnated as a family member this life, it is understandable now, from a past life perspective, why certain people would not be fond of me 😂
For someone who was completely heartbroken by a lack of love and support from a 3D perspective, to then be able to understand their reactions from a different perspective, it was priceless to my healing journey.
I think I was cold in previous lives. Plus I have a memory of murdering a benefactor, then murdering soldiers who had taken over my city and so I went on a streak of vengeance, like an insurgent, and then I have a horrible memory of lying in a field, injured and unable to move, until the enemy came and shot me dead.
So it’s basically, murder, be murdered, murder, be murdered.
I cannot agree enough with your words that we, humans, need to physically and emotionally feel what it is like to be hurt, the way we hurt someone, before we truly learn our lessons.
So I have been able to forgive a lot of behaviour this life time, and then I had to go on a mental journey of learning to forgive myself, which is actually harder.
And, when I have been unable to forgive someone, and I have asked god for guidance because I am not able to progress in that area, I have had an intuitive message from God say, ‘you are only human,’ meaning, he understands and recognises my pain, and does not want to push me into forgiving someone if I am not ready for it.
To have something as big as an omnipresence like God, to have the capacity to empathise with me, as if I was just his, and not 1 out of a trillion souls, is comforting.
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I have always wondered what happens to souls who do not progress. I find your ideas new to me.
I assumed that, eventually, an evil soul would have a moment of love creak through their otherwise dark soul, and that crack of light is enough to work with and work on the next incarnation.
This is just my theory though.
For example, in interviews with psychopaths, some of them have absolutely no light in their soul at all. And then some, appear to have a 0.5% of regret, that paves the way for progress in the next like. Like, there was a psychopath who communicated regret about a particularly gruesome way he had murdered an innocent man, by pouring acid on his face and watching his face melt. The guy said that was the one murder he regretted, because it was too painful for him not to feel some type of remorse.
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I’m going to say something controversial here, but only because it is about Trump and he gets peoples backs up - I am from the UK and not political at all, but I think this is a good example to share, because everyone knows how unlikeable he is —
There is a story about Trump and Trump’s Father, and Trump’s brother, Fred, who drank himself to death. His mother described Fred as ‘a dolphin born into a family of sharks.’
The sharks, Trump and his father, bullied and tormented Fred because he was not as ruthless as they were, and they condemned him for it, and he drank himself to death.
Now that wound, that Trump will have hidden in his soul, that regret over the death of his more kind-hearted brother, will bring a fragment of light in which God can utilise for Trump’s personal growth.
Before anyone has a fit, I’m not suggesting Trump is a good guy this life.
I am open to your suggestion that, if a soul refuses to grow, then it will eventually die out. That is a new concept to me and I am glad you brought it to my attention.
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On another note, isn’t it interesting that once you see the pattern of life in terms of multiple incarnations, and can see that pain leads to a more open heart, isn’t it weird when you notice people whose hearts are so closed in life?
You can see ego in a lot of people.
I have had some bizarre experiences, where some people seem to hate me, even mental health care professionals. I think they see in themselves their own hypocrisy, even without me saying anything, and it triggers something in them.
But, just to even the playing field here, I am also a work in progress. And if it wasn’t for such a tough childhood and a longing for answers, I would be just as unconscious as they are. And even though I am relatively more conscious than some people, does not mean I am not like a Bull in a China shop, making mistakes left, right and centre.
Even with a relatively more open heart than the average, I still cause pain to people either unwittingly or. because of my ego.
Most of my past life memories, I have murdered people, benefactors and the more fair game of murdering soldiers. And I think I have been born a girl this life time, and my right wrist was broken during a Saturn transit, because God has *barred* me from fighting this life, forcing me to think more 😂
I hope my words made sense. It’s rare to be able to talk to someone about these things.