I strongly dislike explaining things that happened with astrology because it can make you feel helpless and victimized. I've never read anywhere this thing with Moon in air sign in 12th, but from your post alone I could speculate she has some mental problems. However, speculations are not astrology.
If I have to be honest I don't think what everyone said is true, it seems more like trying to fit the picture. Astrology rarely speaks so directly and detailed, and the biggest mistake is to try and read it that way because that causes further misinterpretations.
In your case I'd say this was caused by Saturn in 8th. Wherever Saturn sits it distorts and makes a lifelong problem. In your case is emotional issues, insecurity, perhaps lack of self esteem sometimes and self worth (Chiron in 2nd opp Saturn), perhaps problems with intimacy, feelings, sex.
If we believe Saturn is our karma , then you can see this from the perspective that something in a previous life stained you with this karma to pay in this life, and you just chose your mother because she was the one who could serve the debt the best.
Or, it's a lesson you chose to learn this life, and we all know nothing ****s us up as our childhood. Interestingly enough for a person with Saturn in 8th and air moon you are quite sensitive.
I too suffered verbal and sometimes physical abuse till I was 18, aka moved out haha. But I managed to heal it pretty quickly somehow. Just within 5 years.
Your moon is in a sensitive house, however something always slips out of your fingers when it comes to emotions. I almost feel like you couldn't react on the moment, because when the abuse was happening it's like you didn't even notice or understood, and short time after that it hits you that what was done isn't right, and you want to speak up but it was always too late. I know I got too specific, but that's just what I felt as a pattern.
Not to mention you have T-square from Sun to Saturn opp Chiron. That seems like a lot of healing to me.
I'd love to help you really, I feel for you, I've been there, we can talk privetly if you want.
My general advice is look for any possible way to heal. Psychologists, tarot, spirituality, yoga, meditation, all 8th and 12th house connected things. This is something that will help you immensely. You made the step knowing where the issue is so you are halfway there.
Thank you Ardentika for your kind words and analysis. I am REALLY sensitive, but I mostly don't show it, unless I'm with someone I trust since I feel I'm ripping myself open and giving opportunities to others in case they want to hurt me or manipulate me.
Gemini moon plays out by me being sarcastic when I'm talking about myself and how I feel. When I was in the dark pits of depression no one really knew it since I was able to hide it so well behind a forced smile and a sense of humor. But I was suffering like hell inside. Also, I always try to look for a logical explanation to everything, however, I also know that many things can't be explained by logic or at all.
Mind you, my mom had 2 miscarriages before I was born and had troubles throughout my pregnancy, however she told me that she wanted to have me so badly that she didn't care she couldn't move from her bed (severe nauseas, vomiting and threats of miscarriage) while she was carrying me in the womb.
I am mostly considered intelligent, charming and good-looking by other people, but I couldn't really see it. My self esteem was underground. Now it's much better after years of therapy and after I discovered astrology.
Although I have difficulties showing my emotions, I can have a lot of empathy and understand other's feelings (when I have the patience to do it). I am a medical doctor, so it's really helpful for me. It's interesting how the 12th house also rules hospitals and asylums.
Problems with sex and intimacy? Not really yet, but I always have to "dominate the scene", not in a BDSM, violence or extreme stuff thing, but I have to take the lead in bed and my pleasure derives more from giving the other pleasure than actually feeling pleasure, if that makes sense.
The thing is, when my mother used to abuse me, I was stuck. I didn't know how to react since "wow, a mother isn't SUPPOSED to do this". Why is she doing that?? There were my thoughts. I always responded to her abuses by telling her she was doing it all wrong, that I wish she wasn't my mother and by insulting her, and she would begin with the victimization and guilt trips.
Note that she has a tight conjunction of her Moon to the asteroid Sado (1º applying), maybe it's relevant.
I used to live alone for the past 4 years, now because of some circumstances, I was forced to go and live at my parents' for a while, a big fight broke loose which made me remember of all the abuses, and I started this thread. I knew my life was going to change, I have been preparing for it for a while (tUranus opposing sun in the 5th and tNeptune opposing Venus in the 4th). I'm doing everything I can in order to go back living alone.
Hello, there. I immediately knew after reading the question,(before looking at the chart) that our charts were similar, because we have quite similar experiences(and I was right). Saturn in the 8th house aspecting Chiron can be brutal. Abuse and trauma are very common when it comes to Saturn in the 8th house. Also, Cancer Ascendants are very affected by their mothers(Or mother figure) in their lives. I know that from experience. You have Mercury inconjunct Moon, and that means improper emotional expression. You may have problems dealing with emotions, so you either repress them or explode. (I do have this aspect as well). I also had an overprotective, but emotionally and physically abusive mother. Things changed me a lot as an adult, but still she says hurtful stuff to me or tries to control what I wear. She wants me to look as fashionable as possible(I have Libra Moon). Also, it's interesting that my Mum is a Scorpio Ascendant as well. I have suffered from depression for several years, and had obsessive suicidal tendencies.(I have Saturn square Pluto as well.)
I see that you have many planets in the 5th house(And with Moon in the 12th house in Gemini). Creativity can be really helpful to you. Do you like writing or drawing? More creative you are, better you can deal with darker emotions.(I have Moon and Pluto in the 5th).I'll attach my own chart in case you want to see it.
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P.S. I'm like six months younger than you. Not born in 88. I just like this number.
I feel for both of you. It's terrible. And I didn't know chiron opposing saturn in the 2nd-8th axis was so "bad". You were also born during a full moon (were your parents perhaps very different from each other and working one against the other?), and your Sun and Venus are squared Neptune and Uranus, I suppose it can't be easy. I suspect lots of instability and confused self image, however, a very keen perception.
I used to write funny poetry when I was a teenager, drawing not so much. However, I ALWAYS do things creatively, even medicine, which is my field. I follow protocols, but I feel that they should only create an order and not limit the physician's possibilities. I feel like medicine is an art and not an exact science, a bit like alchemy. Also, since I discovered astrology I also want to work with that and maybe integrate astrology with medicine. I feel my purpose in life is to help others and relieve them from suffering.
As for exploding, that's true, I used to do it. Repress and repress until I explode and everybody would be baffled, they didn't expect it. I understand that's also a possible Mars-Saturn expression.
I am a bit fearful about my Saturn return in 2020. I didn't hear very good things about saturn return in the 8th, let alone squaring sun/mars (and opposing chiron). I am very afraid of my death despite my young age, although I am also fascinated with death as a topic.